What Grace and Truth do offer liberally. And so she died, I live. But yet, alas! Cleaves fast unto me still, looks through mine eyes, Speaks in my tongue, and museth in my mind, Works with mine hands: her body's left behind, Although her soul be gone. My miseries All flow from hence; from hence my woes arise. I loathe myself, because I leave her not; Now being dead, that living was my choice; All which for vengeance call with a loud voice, And drown my comforts with their deadly noise. Dead bodies kept unburied quickly stink But mortified Corruption lies unmask'd, To all that understand her. That do none In whom she lives embraced with delight: Then dote they on her, as upon their own, But woe is me! One part of me is dead; By the dead part. I am a living grave, The worse part of the better, oft doth win: The scent would choke me, were it not that grace Sometimes vouchsafeth to perfume the place With odours of the Spirit, which do ease me, And of myself Transgressions only please me, Challenge thine own. Let not intruders hold O speak the word, and make these inmates flee : THE CURB. PEACE, rebel thought: dost thou not know thy King, My God, is here? Cannot his presence, if no other thing, Make thee forbear? Or were he absent, all the standers by And well he knows, if thou shouldst it deny, If others will not, yet I must, and will, My God, even now a base rebellious thought And subt❜ly twining with me would have wrought Fain he would have me to believe, that Sin Take up my heart together for your Inn, The other's company: a while sit still, Tell me, my God, how this may be redrest: And I the guilty party have confest, I must be beat. And I refuse not punishment for this, So I may Though to my pain; learn to do no more amiss, Nor sin again: Correct me, if thou wilt; but teach me then, What I shall do. Lord of my life, methinks I heard thee say, The fault, that is confess'd, is done away, How can I sin again, and wrong thee then, And cease thine anger straight, as soon as men No, rebel thought; for if thou move again, WHITHER, oh! whither is my Lord departed? What can my Love, that is so tender-hearted, Forsake the soul, which once he thorough darted, As if it never smarted? No, sure my Love is here, if I could find him : He that fills all can leave no place behind him. But oh! my senses are too weak to wind him : Or else I do not mind him. |