Of its reverberated lightning. Narrow The heart that loves, the brain that contemplates, A sepulchre for its eternity. Mind from its object differs most in this; If you divide pleasure and love and thought, There was a Being whom my spirit oft Met on its visioned wanderings, far aloft, In the clear golden prime of my youth's dawn, Upon the fairy isles of sunny lawn, Amid the enchanted mountains, and the caves Of divine sleep, and on the air-like waves Of wonder-level dream, whose tremulous floor Paved her light steps. On an imagined shore, Under the gray beak of some promontory She met me, robed in such exceeding glory That I beheld her not. In solitudes Her voice came to me through the whispering woods, And from the fountains and the odors deep Of flowers, which, like lips murmuring in their sleep And from the breezes whether low or loud, Of antique verse and high romance, in form, Her Spirit was the harmony of truth. Then from the caverns of my dreamy youth As if it were a lamp of earthly flame. But She, whom prayers or tears then could not tame, Passed, like a god throned on a winged planet, Whose burning plumes to tenfold swiftness fan it, Into the dreary cone of our life's shade'; And as a man with mighty loss dismayed, I would have followed, though the grave between Yawned like a gulf whose spectres are unseen; When a voice said: "O Thou of hearts the weakest, The phantom is beside thee whom thou seekest." 66 Then I-" Where?" the world's echo answered "Where?" And in that silence, and in my despair, I questioned every tongueless wind that flew Over the sightless tyrants of our fate; But neither prayer nor verse could dissipate The world I say of thoughts that worshipped her; And struggling through its error with vain strife, If I could find one form resembling hers, In which she might have masked herself from me. One, whose voice was venomed melody There, flowers; Her touch was as electric poison, Out of her looks into my vitals came, flame And from her living cheeks and bosom flew In many mortal forms I rashly sought The shadow of that idol of my thought. And some were fair but beauty dies away; Others were wise- but honeyed words betray; And one was true oh! why not true to me? Then, as a hunted deer that could not flee, I turned upon my thoughts, and stood at bay, Wounded and weak and panting; the cold day Trembled, for pity of my strife and pain, When, like a noonday dawn, there shone again Deliverance. One stood on my path who seemed As like the glorious shape, which I had dreamed, As is the Moon, whose changes ever run Into themselves, to the eternal Sun; The cold chaste Moon, the Queen of Heaven's bright isles, Who makes all beautiful on which she smiles; And, as a cloud charioted by the wind, What storms then shook the ocean of my sleep, Blotting that Moon, whose pale and waning lips Then shrank as in the sickness of eclipse; And how my soul was as a lampless sea, And who was then its Tempest; and when She, The Planet of that hour, was quenched, what frost Crept o'er those waters, till from coast to coast The moving billows of my being fell Into a death of ice, immovable; And then what earthquakes made it gape and split, The white Moon smiling all the while on it ; — These words conceal; if not, each word would be The key of stanchless tears. Weep not for me! |