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the reverse of what ought, in justice, to have done either!'-This exclamation is undoubtedly true;-and from all I have ever seen I fully conincide with my father's belief. I heard him once say I do believe that there never were but two men whom Eveline would have thought worthy of being loved-one still lives, it is Franklin-and the other was Milton.' I agree with him that she might have become attached to such a man as Franklin Milton strikes me as wanting blandness of disposition-but (you will think me very fantastic, dear Edward, but recollect, you begged me to be most minute) I think such a being as, it might be supposed, could be compounded of the best qualities of Franklin and Las Casas, would be nearer the mark than all.

My mother died, as you know, while I was still quite young-and all the recollections of my mental cultivation apply to Aunt Eveline. Slight, indeed, and smattering, is the all I know when I look at her stores of knowledge, which I have had the opportunities of years to contemplate. She avoided, indeed, purposely, many of the stronger and more abstruse studies, for me, which she had herself pursued. Still, even in what she did lead me to, I had ample means of seeing the qualities of clearness, strength, delicacy, and rapidity by which her mind is distinguished ;-yet all these powers, and the acquisitions they had gained for her, were wholly untinged with the slightest touch of pedantry or display.

"But what I value far more than all this is the active excellence of her warm and admirable heart. Oh Edward, if ever you find one trace of sympathy with suffering, or of desire to relieve it, in me, you will owe it to that invaluable woman. I will not speak of the manner in which she devoted her whole life to my parents and myself-or of the love she bore them, and still, thank Heaven, bears to me. I allude now to her kindness, active and real, to the poor. Many and many is the bitter day in winter that I

have known this model of practical good feeling walk out through the snow, and go to the cottage of some sick or suffering villager, who was poor. There have I seen her administer the relief and comforts of medicine, food, religious advice and prayer, or kind and cheerful conversation, as the occasion required. Nothing, indeed, could be more beautiful, or tend more-I feel it now-to teach us what real charity is, than to hear Aunt Eveline talk with the poor. She did not assume interest in their humble matters, as many do,—she felt it ;-she listened to obtain the information she needed, with the utmost patience; she questioned them with clearness, brevity, and kindness mingled; she gave them ber advice in a manner which almost made the people believe the ideas she suggested had originally arisen in their own minds.

"I recollect a remarkable instance of all these qualities. We were caught in a snow-storm one very severe January; we took shelter in a hovel which stood in the corner of a field, close to the road. There we found an old carpenter of the village, who said he was delighted to meet kind Mistress Eveline,' as the elder people always called her, as he had hit, he thought, on a mechanical improvement in one of the tools of his trade, which he longed to explain to her. Off he set into a long explanation, of which I understood not one word, but which Aunt Eveline went along with perfectly. When the old man had been in the full swing of his discourse about a quarter of an hour, the carriage arrived to bring us home, as it had been known which way we had gone. knew my aunt had a severe cold, and I pressed her to go at once. No, she said, she must hear out old Christopher's plan, which seemed to her very ingenious. The conversation lasted half an hour more, about the last three minutes of which she occupied in giving her opinion of the invention. My father afterwards got her to confess that she had given Christopher the one idea which had made all the rest

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of avail, and without which they would all have been useless; his suspicions having been roused by hearing the old man say several times- It's very odd, but I thought of the best bit of the whole plan while I was talking to kind Mistress Eveline in the snow-storm.' Mistress Eveline herself was laid up for a fortnight; but she cared not-for Christopher gained a round sum for the patent he got for the invention.

"I am sure, dear, dear Edward, you are not one to think these details childish, or too minute. You will see at once that I could in no other way so well show you what she really is. You may have heard some few sneers at her talents and their cultivation among cold-blooded, fine' people; but I have heard thousands of blessings bursting from the hearts of the poor, for the goodness of her heart.

her an inmate.
for your own. I allude to that de-
lightful constancy of cheerfulness of
manner, which might be called gaiety
had it not a beautiful dash of tender-
ness which renders that too light a
word. A good heart, actively em-
ployed, always produces this, which
your own heart will at once set before
your imagination. Oh! Edward, you
do not even conceive how I bless you
for adding to my new home the only
thing that could increase the happiness
I know will reign there—the society of
my dear, dear Aunt Eveline! There
is but one feeling in the world which
exceeds my unspeakable affection for
her;-Edward, can you guess what
that is?"

You will soon rejoice

The only addition which I shall make to the picture, so ably and so truly drawn in the preceding letters, of the character of Eveline Meynell, is the following tribute to her memory, which is inscribed on the slightly but beautifully ornamented slab placed over her grave :

"And these inward qualities have produced one outward characteristic which will make her a blessing, instead of an incumbrance, to that home of which, for my sake, my own love, you have so kindly determined to make Sacred to the Memory of Eveline Meynell, grand-aunt of Sir Edward Meynell, Bart., present owner of Arlescot Hall, in this parish. He raises this monument to her as to THE SECOND BEST; the origin of that appellation, current in the family, having proved her to have been THE BEST of all. For, the universal object of affection must be the most good. And, when the husband of a long and happy marriage was asked, whom he loved the best, second only to his wife?-when the affianced, who was second to his betrothed?-the wife of the first year, who second to her newly-married husband?—nay, when the bride, on the eve of so becoming, was asked who was second in her love to him she was about to wed?—each and all have answered,

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THINE eyes are charm'd, thine earnest eyes, And sometimes Pity-soft and deep,

Thou Image of the Dead!

A spell within this sweetness lies,

A virtue thence is shed.

Oft in their meek blue light enshrined,
A blessing seems to be;

And sometimes there, my wayward mind
A still reproach can see.

And quivering through a tear;

Ev'n as if Love in Heaven could weep,

For Grief left drooping here.

And oh my spirit needs that balm,
Needs it 'midst fitful mirth,

And in the night-hour's haunted calm,
And by the lonely hearth.

Look on me thus, when hollow Praise
Hath made the weary pine,
For one true tone of other days,

One glance of love like thine!

Look on me thus, when sudden glee
Bears my quick heart along,
On wings that struggle to be free
As bursts of skylark song.

In vain, in vain!-too soon are felt The wounds they cannot flee; Better in child-like tears to melt, Pouring my soul on thee!

Sweet face, that o'er my childhood shone,
Whence is thy power of change,

Thus, ever shadowing back my own,
The rapid and the strange?

Whence are they charm'd-those earnest eyes?

I know the mystery well!
In my own trembling bosom lies
The Spirit of the Spell.

Of Memory, Conscience, Love, 'tis born-
Oh! change no longer, Thou!
Forever be the blessing worn
On thy pure thoughtful brow!

THE MURDERER'S LAST NIGHT.

UNTIL my twenty-seventh year I resided in the small cathedral town of Cr in which I was born. My parents-especially my mother-were of a serious cast. She had been educated as a Quaker, but following her own notions as to religion, she in the latter part of her life became attached to the tenets of that sect known by the name of Moravians, and last of all to those which, when held in connexion with the ritual of the church. of England, are termed Evangelical;" or, in dissent from it, "Methodistical."

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She was warm and fanciful in her devotional practice; for which the belief as to the palpable and plenary influence of the Holy Spirit upon the human mind, in which she was bred, may help to account. Of these aspirations I, an ardent and sensitive boy, soon learned to partake. My mind was never naturally prone to vice; and my imagination, though forward, was pure. I was brought up by my excellent parents in the practice of virtue; and I loved it. With an outward conduct thus guaranteeing inward persuasions-with professions borne out by an unquestioned and pure, if not altogether unostentatious piety of behavior, what wonder that I soon became a distinguished votary of the peculiar principles to which I had attached myself. It is difficult for a young man to know himself looked up to-be the cause what it may-without his feelings and his conduct being affected by

such homage. Nature had endowed me, if not with eloquence, at least with considerable fluency of speech; and as my natural diffidence-which at first was great-wore away, whether by extempore prayer or seasonable exhortation, the effects I produced exceeded those, the fruits of zeal, of those about me. I became admired as one more than usually gifted, and was gradually exalted into a leader. The occasional tendency to gloom and nervous irritability to which my temperament inclined me, was yet only marked enough to throw no unbecoming seriousness and gravity into the features of so young an apostle. It was strange to see persons of all ages and both sexes admiring at the innate seriousness of so early a preacher, and owning the sometimes really fervid earnestness of my appeals, my warnings or my denunciations. I began more and more to feel myself in a station above that of my fellows, and that I had now a character to sustain before the eyes of men. Young as I was, could it well have been otherwise?

Let me however speak the truth. Spiritual pride at last crept upon me. Devotion by insensible degrees became tainted with self, and the image of God was, I fear, sometimes forgotten for that of his frail and unworthy creature. True it was, I still, without slackening, spoke comfort to the ear of suffering or repentant sin-I still exhorted the weak and strengthened the strong. I still warn

ed the besotted in corruption that the fruits of vice, blossom as she will, are but like those of the shores of the Dead Sea, seeming gay, but only emptiness and bitter ashes. But, alas! the bearer of the blessed message spoke as if the worm that bore, could add grace to the tidings he conveyed to his fellow worm. I was got upon a precipice, but knew it not-that of self-worship and conceit; the worst creature-idolatry. It was bitterly revealed to me at last.

About the year 1790, at the Assizes for the county of which the town of Cr is the county town, was tried and convicted a wretch guilty of one of the most horrible murders upon record. He was a young man, probably (for he knew not his own years) of about twenty-two years of age. One of those wandering and unsettled creatures, who seem to be driven from place to place, they know not why. Without home; without name; without companion; without sympathy; without sense. Hearthless, friendless, idealess, almost soul-less! and so ignorant, as not even to seem to know whether he had ever heard of a Redeemer, or seen his written Word. It was on a stormy Christmas eve, when he begged shelter in the hut of an old man, whose office it was to regulate the transit of conveyances upon the road of a great mining establishment in the neighborhood. The old man had received him, and shared with him his humble cheer and his humble bed; for on that night the wind blew, and the sleet drove, after a manner that would have made it a crime to have turned a stranger dog to the door. The next day the poor old creature was found dead in his hut-his brains beaten out with an old iron implement which he used-and his little furniture rifled and in confusion. The wretch had murdered him for the supposed hoard of a few shillings. The snow, from which he afforded his murderer shelter, had drifted in at the door, which the miscreant, when he fled, had left open, and was frozen red with the blood of his victim. But it betrayed

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Up to the hour of condemnation, he remained reckless as the windunrepenting as the flint-venomous as the blind-worm. With that deep and horrible cunning which is so often united to unprincipled ignorance, he had almost involved in his fate another vagrant with whom he had chanced to consort, and to whom he had disposed of some of the blood-bought spoils. The circumstantial evidence was so involved and interwoven, that the jury, after long and obvious hesitation as to the latter, found both guilty; and the terrible sentence of death, within forty-eight hours, was passed upon both. The culprit bore it without much outward emotion; but when taken from the dock, his companion, infuriated by despair and grief, found means to level a violent blow at the head of his miserable and selfish betrayer, which long deprived the wretch of sense and motion, and, for some time, was thought to have anticipated the executioner. Would it had done so ! But let me do my duty as I ought-let me repress the horror which one scene of this dreadful drama never fails to throw over my spirit-that I may tell my story as a man-and my confession at least be clear.

When the felon awoke out of the death-like trance into which this assault had thrown him, his hardihood was gone; and he was reconveyed to the cell, in which he was destined agonizingly to struggle out his last hideous and distorted hours, in a state of abject horror which cannot be described. He who felt nothing-knew nothing-had now his eyes opened with terrible clearness to one object— the livid phantasma of a strangling death. All the rest was convulsive despair and darkness. Thought shudders at it--but let me go on.

The worthy clergyman, whose par

or to retain one feather's weight in
the balance against him, let me hum-
bly hope and trust. That I was a
cause, and a great one, of this unhap-
py delusion, let me not deny. God
forgive me, if I thought sometimes
less of the soul to be saved than of
him who deemned he might be one of
the humble instruments of grace. It
is but too true that I fain would have
danced, like David, before the Ark.
Within and without was I assailed by
those snares which, made of pride, are
seen in the disguise of charity. The
aspirations of my friends, the eyes of
mine enemies, the wishes of the good,
and the sneers of the mistrustful,
were about me, and upon me; and I
undertook to pass with the Murderer
-HIS LAST NIGHT-such a last !—

ticular duty it was to smooth and
soften, and, if possible, illuminate the
last dark hours of the dying wretch,
was not unwilling to adinit the volun-
tary aid of those whom religious pre-
dispositions and natural commisera-
tion excited to share with him in the
work of piety. The task was in
truth a hard one. The poor wretch,
for the sake of the excitement which
such intercourse naturally afforded
him, and which momentarily relieved
his sick and fainting spirit, groaned
out half articulate expressions of ac-
quiescence in the appeals that were
made to him; but the relief was phy-
sical merely. The grasp of the
friendly hand made waver, for a mo-
ment, the heavy shadow of death
which hung upon him-and he grasp-
ed it. The voice breathing mercy but let me compose myself.
and comfort in his ear, stilled for a
second the horrid echo of doom-and
he listened to it. It was
as the
drowning man gasps at the bubble of
air which he draws down with him in
sinking-or as a few drops of rain to
him at the stake, around whom the
fire is kindled and hot. This, alas!
we saw not as we ought to have done
-but when the sinking wretch, at the
word "mercy," laid his head upon
our shoulder and groaned, we, san-
guine in enthusiasm, deemed it deep
repentance. When his brow seemed
smooth for a space, at the sound of
Eternal Life, we thought him as "a
brand snatched from the burning."
In the forward pride (for pride it
was) of human perfectibility, we took
him-him the Murderer-as it were
under our tutelage and protection.
We prayed with him-we read to him
-we watched with him-we blessed
his miserable sleeps and met his
more wretched awakings. In the pre-
sumption of our pity, we would
cleanse that white, in the world's eye,
which God had, for inscrutable pur-
poses, ordained should seem to the
last murky as hell. We would
paint visibly upon him the outward
and visible sign of sin washed away,
and merey found. That that intended
triumph may not have helped to add

It was about the hour of ten, on a gusty and somewhat raw evening of September, that I was locked up alone with the Murderer. It was the evening of the Sabbath. Some rain had fallen, and the sun had not been long set without doors: but for the last hour and a half the dungeon had been dark, and illuminated only by a single taper. The clergyman of the prison, and some of my religious friends, had sat with us until the hour of locking up, when, at the suggestion of the gaoler, they departed. I must confess their "good night," and the sound of the heavy door, which the gaoler locked after him, when he went to accompany them to the outergate of the gaol, sounded heavily on my heart. I felt a sudden shrink within me, as their steps quickly ceased to be heard upon the stone stairs-and when the distant prison door was finally closed, I watched the last echo. I had for a moment forgotten my companion. When I turned round, he was sitting on the side of his low pallet, towards the head of it, supporting his head by his elbow against the wall, apparently in a state of half stupor. He was motionless, excepting a sort of convulsive movement, between sprawling and clutch

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