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of days, and of months, which thou hast afforded after backsliding. Add this to the number! Psalm cxliii. "Hear my prayer, O Lord; give ear to my supplication ; in thy faithfulness answer me, and in thy righteousness. Enter not into judgment with thy servant, for in thy sight shall no flesh living be justified.
"My spirit is overwhelmed within me, my heart within me is desolate. I stretch out my hands unto thee; my soul thirsteth after thee, in a thirsty land. Hear me speedily, O Lord: my spirit faileth; hide not thy face from me, lest I be like unto those that go down into the pit. Cause me to hear thy loving-kindness in the morning, for in thee do I trust: cause me to know the way wherein I should walk, for I lift up my soul unto thee. Deliver me, O Lord, from mine enemies: I flee unto thee to hide Teach me to do thy will, for thou art my God. Thy Spirit is good, lead me into the land of uprightness. Quicken me, O Lord, for thy name's sake; for thy rightcousness' sake, bring my soul out of trouble."
I wait for thy salvation.
This heart my Jesus bought with blood,
O seize it, fix it, Saviour God;
Take full possession of this heart,
And make it all thine own.
O dare I not to thee appeal,
That on this heart thou stamp thy seal,
To fix this heart to stray no more,
No chilling fear my soul should move,
The resurrection and the life,
Then boast not, monster, of thy sting,
In th' arms of God's anointed King,
July 17, 1814.
SACRAMENT Sabbath. Mr. R. preached from 1 Peter, i. 8, 9. "Whom having not seen ye love; in whom, though now ye see him not, yet believing, ye rejoice with joy unspeakable and full of glory; receiving the end of your faith, even the salvation of your souls."
I had requested to be brought into my Lord's banquetting-house, and to be feasted with love this day. I ate the bread and drank the wine, in the faith that I ate the flesh and drank the blood of the Son of man, and dwelt in him and he in me. I took a close view of my familiar friend Death, accompanied with the presence of my Saviour, "his sensible presence." I cannot look at it without this: it is my only petition concerning
it. I have had desires relative to certain circumstances, but they are nearly gone. It is my sincere desire that God may be glorified, and he knows best how and by what circumstances. I retain my one petition,
"Only to me thy count'nance shew,
My last Journey through the Wilderness,
PASSAGE OVER JORDAN.*
JOSHUA i. 11., and chap. iii. "Prepare your victuals; for within three days ye shall pass over this Jordan, to go in to possess the land which the Lord your God giveth you to possess it. When ye see the Ark of the Covenant of the Lord your God, and the priests bearing it, then ye shall remove, and go after it: that ye may know the way by which ye must go, for ye have not passed this way here
Sanctify yourselves, for to-morrow the Lord will do wonders among you.
"Behold, the ark of the covenant of the Lord of all the earth, passeth over before you into Jordan; and it shall come to pass, that as soon as the soles of the feet of the priests that bear the ark of the Lord,—the Lord of all the earth, shall rest in the waters, that the waters of Jordan shall be cut off from the waters that come down from above: and they shall stand upon a heap.
"And it came to pass, when the people removed from
* Found in Mrs. Graham's pocket after her decease.
their tents, to pass over Jordan, and the priests bearing' the Ark of the Covenant before the people, that, as they that bare the Ark were come into Jordan, and the feet of the priests were dipped in the brim of the water, that the waters that came down from above stood and rose up upon a heap; and the priests that bare the Ark of the Covenant of the Lord, stood firm on dry ground in the midst of Jordan, and all the Israelites passed over on dry ground.
"And Joshua set up twelve stones in the midst of Jordan, in the place where the feet of the priests that bare the Ark of the Covenant of the Lord stood: and they are there unto this day.
"When your children shall ask their fathers in time to come, saying, What mean these stones? Ye shall let your children know, saying, Israel came over this Jordan, on dry land for the Lord your God dried up the waters from before you until ye were passed over, as the Lord your God did to the Red Sea, which he dried up until we were passed over. That all people of the earth might know the hand of the Lord, that it is mighty that ye might fear the Lord your God for ever. Amen.”
Oh! Thou Jehovah! Israel's God, and, by thy new covenant, my God; thus far hast thou brought me through the wilderness; bearing, chastising, forgiving, restoring. Well hast thou made out thy wilderness name to me, "The Lord, the Lord God, merciful and gracious, longsuffering, abundant in goodness and truth, keeping mercy for thousands, forgiving iniquity, transgression, and sin." Great have been my provocations, but greater still thy Covenant mercy. I have not perished with them that believed not; sore bitten I am, but thou hast fixed mine eyes on the lifted up Healer, and I am in his hand for further cure. My journey has been long, and my way