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endeavouring to put to flight the followers of the Lamb. But, blessed be Immanuel, he still reigns, and will reign till he has put all eneinies under his feet. O, I rejoice to think, that greater is he that is for us than he that is for the world. And our dear Lord is encouraging us by saying, “ Fear not, little flock, it is your Father's good pleasure to give you the kingdom.”—Dear Sir, we wish much to see you. And I have often thought, if the deacon were here, I should lose all fear of man, and go forth with courage ; for I am but a faint-hearted foldier. The storm of persecution has abated very much, and the enemies are become more peaceable: but, Sir, we are still in the field of battle, and surrounded by enemies on every side. We need the whole armour of God, that we may be able to fight valiantly for the cause of Christ. O for faith and a spirit of prayer; there are weapons most necessary for the christian warfare.--Marshfield has been visited with a shower of grace, and many dry bones made to live. I have been to visit the dear brothers and fifters, and my soul seemed to magnify the Lord, and rejoice in Christ iny Saviour, to think he has made such a glorious display of his victorious love and grace to poor fouls. Bridgewater is now receiving the word with joy, and many have come on the Lord's side, and inore are yielding up themselves living facrifices to the Lord. --The four winds of the Holy Spirit have blown away the refuges of lies from Abington. A glorious work of God is going on there. They meet every day, and the ministers have as much as they can do, to feed the sheep and lambs of the dear Immanuel.-- 0 Sir, the angel has come down to seal the children of God in their foreheads. Pray for us, that the Lord may pour out upon us his Spirit in greater .effufions. O for wrestling Jacobs, that will give him no rest till Zion is made a praise in the whole earth. O that Jesus would set up his standard here, and get to himself glory and praise. I conclude, with wishing that we might all ineet here once more, if it be the Lord's will; if not, I hope we shall all meet at the right hand
of Jefus, and join the holy saints and angels in the song of Moses and the Lamb, and be made pillars in the temple of God, and go no more out.
Your unworthy friend,
EXPERIENCE OF J. M. • Mr. Davis, If the subsequent late experience of a work of grace upon
the heart should be esteemed suficiently interesting to be inserted in your excellent Magazine, be pleased to publish it, and gratify
A READER. TS it not agreeable to the divine command to give
I an answer to every man that asketh us a reason of the hope that is in us, with meekness and fear? Come and hear, then, all ye that fear God, and I will declare what he hath done for my foul - Especially, since it hath pleased a holy and sovereign God, after I had finned away the best part of my Thort probation state, to convince me of my loft and undone condition, and to give me a comfortable hope of the pardon of my fins, and of a begun preparation for an awful eternity. Does not duty call me to render it thus public, in this congregation, and to narrate, in brief, the circuinstances of a life marked by evil and rebellion against God?
I desire first of all to bless God that I was born and educated in a land of gospel light and knowledge, and in a place where the truths of God's word were held up in a most clear and striking light--that I was born of religious, prayerful parents, who, in infancy, dedicated me to God, in the folemn covenanting ordinance of infant baptifm-that in the early part of my life I had the privilege of living in families of a religious character, where much pains were used to instil into my mind, sentiments of piety. I look upon these exertions in my behalf, as the surest pledges of guardian and parental
of J. M. attachment. O how valuable did my parents and guardians view my rational soul, a soul that was formed by God for iinmortality. But while I recognise there kindnesles, my mind is filled with shame, in a view of the unhappy manner in which I iinproved them. I lived a life, indeed, outwardly civil, and, for the most part, might be supposed by the world (who form their judgment according to outward appearances, respecting the true moral characters of mankind, and not according to God's holy law) an honest person; but it was in truth, a life of rebellion against the great and mighty God, upon whose mercy I daily depended for these forfeited blessings and favours.'
It must, however, be remarked, that the impreffions I then received, served, in a very important degree, to restrain me from acting out the corrupt propensities of my depraved heart. I have uniformly dreaded gross immoralities; and I think the impressions I received have never been wholly eradicated from my mind, but have had a considerable influence over my behaviour to the present time.
From the time I was eight or nine years old, I believe the Holy Spirit has, in many instances, awakened me. Many times I have trembled in a contemplation of death, judgment, and eternity. When thus terrified, my usual practice has been to cry unto God, and to attend to other duties. Sometimes I had the ralh presumption to hope God heard, and accepted my fearful, selfiin importunities. I was very sensible that if I died in this situation and temper of mind, I should go to misery, and resorted to these duties to get relief from my pain. I little thought that all my prayers were folemn mockery of the great and dreadful God, and that I was attempting to build up a legal righteousness. In this way I lived till I was about twenty years of age.
At the age of twenty, it pleased the Lord to revive his work in the place where I then lived. Many were alarmed at their situation. The question became genc
ral, What must I do to be saved ? - Places of worship and prayer became exceedingly thronged. Many laboured under the terrors of a broken law, who were made finally to bow to the mild sceptre of the Prince of Peace. The attention to religion became general through the place. Seeing such deep anxiety on the minds of others, my mind became deeply impressed with a sense of my guilt and extreme danger. I was again brought to realise eternal things, and to cry for mercy. But I had not that penetrating discovery and sense of my depravity which others appeared to have; and I had not the least idea of the evil of sin, as committed against an infinitely holy God. I experienced a forrow, but it was a sorrow which arose from a fear of damnation. In this situation of distress and anxiety, I remained almost a year, until a suspension of inquiry began to take place. By degrees I became as stupid and inattentive to matters of religion as ever. I knew the harvest was past, the summer ended, and I not saved; yet this gave me no peculiar uneasiness. Now you may learn whence flow bad sentiments. Now learn whence. flow universalism, deism, and infidelity. For now it was that I began to contrive many foolish, wicked ways, to gain happiness without a reconciliation of heart to God. I now began to call in question the reality of experimental religion. Sometimes I tried to think, that it was either priestcraft, or a state policy to keep mankind in awe, and make thein manageable by human laws. This I would have gladly believed; but divine revelation urged itself upon my better reason, and I could not disbelieve it. The awful authority of the scripture declaration, “ He that believeth, and is baptized, shall be saved, but he that believeth not shall be damned,” had been substantiated to my conscience, while under serious impressions of mind. The bible plainly declared that mankind were awful finners, and by nature condeinned þy the just law of God; such I had felt myself to be. The doctrine of future rewards and punishments, and a day of righteous judgment I could not deny, without
denying what I had, with bitterness, experienced to be true. But another consideration which urged itself in an unwelcome manner on my mind and conscience, was this: Many persons whom I esteemed to be persons of much information and good abilities, were professors of christianity. They, moreover, lived, as I firmly be. lieved, agreeably to their solemn profeffion. I speak with especial reference to some ministers of the gospel, who, I could not but think were sincere, and felt, and believed, the momentous truths which they so earnestly inculcated. Their testimony and example darted conviction through my mind. With them I saw religion was a great and glorious reality. Still, notwithstanding such a rational conviction of the truth and importance of divine revelation, as my heart hated the truth, and the bible afforded ine not the least ground of hope, but cut off my prospect of future peace entirely, with the heart of which I was then poffefsed; I ftill tried to fortify my mind against truth, and used expedients for consolation, which I knew were forbidden. In this state of mind I read Thomas Paine's Age of Reason; I read it contrary to my better judgment and conscience. I reasoned thus with myself: Surely there can be no harm in looking on both sides of a picture. This depraved way of thinking gave me a momentary ease, and filenced the upbraidings of conscience. O how hard is the way of transgressors ! All this period I was going the way to hell, directly down to the chambers of death. I afterwards read an Apology for the Bible, in answer to Paine's mischievous, wicked work. This more than ever confirmed me in the truth and authenticity of the scriptures. Still, however, I cast off fear, and restrained prayer before God. He might with the greatest justice have gone out in ways of wrath against me. He might in perfect equity, have cut me off in the midst of my wickedness and folly, and sentenced me to the very lowest hell. My eternal damnation would have been very juít. Although all finners deserve everlasting misery, yet none ever more deserved it than myself. But the Lord (parcd