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melancholy which had hung upon his mind some time before, made them apprehend the worst that could befal him. Constantia, who knew that nothing but the report of her marriage could have driven him to such extremities, was not to be comforted: she now accused herself for having so tamely given an ear to the proposal of a husband, and looked upon the new lover as the murderer of Theodosius : in short, she resolved to suffer the utmost effects of her father's displeasure, rather than comply with a marriage which appeared to her so full of guilt and horror. The father seeing himself entirely rid of Theodosius, and likely to keep a considerable portion in his family, was not very much concerned at the obstinate refusal of his daughter; and did not find it very difficult to excuse himself upon that account to his intended sonin-law, who had all along regarded this alliance rather as a marriage of convenience than of love. Constantia bad pow no relief but in her devotions and exercises of religion, to which her affiictions had so entirely subjected her mind, that after some years had abated the violence of her sorrows, and settleri her thonghts in a kind of tranquillity, she resolved to pass the remainder of her days in a convent. Her father was not dis. pleased with a resolution which would save inoney in bis family, and accordingly complied with his danghter's intentions. Accordingly, in the twenty-fifth year of her age, while her beauty was yet in all its height and bloom, he carried her to a neighbouring city, in order to look out a sisterhood of nuns among whom to place his daughter. There was in this place a father of a convent who was very much renowned for his piety and exemplary life; and as it is usual in the Romish church for those who are under any great affliction, or trouble of mind, to apply themselves to the most eminent confessors for pardon and consolation, our beautiful votary took the opportunity of con fessing herself to this celebrated father.
We must pow return to Theodosius, who, the very morning that the above-mentioned inquiries had been made after him, arrived at a religious house in the city where now Constantia resided; and desiring that secresy and concealment of the fathers of the convent, which is very usual upon any extraordinary occasion, he made himself one of the order, with a private vow never to inquire after Constantia, whom he looked upon as given away to his rival npon the day on which, according to common fame, their marriage was to have beeu solemnized. Having in his youth made a good progress in learning, that he might dedicate himself more entirely to religion, he entered into holy orders, and in a few years became renowned for his sanctity of life, and those pious sentiments which he inspired into all who conversed with him. It was this boly man to whom Constantia had determined to apply herself in confession, though neither she nor any other, besides the prior of the convent, knew any thiug of his name or family. The gay, the amiable Theodosius had now taken upon bim the name of la. ther Francis, and was so far concealed in a long beard, a shaven lead, and a religious babit, that it was impossible to discover the man of the world in the venerable conventual.
As he was one morning shut up in his confessional, Constantia, kneeling by him, opened the state of her soul to him; and after having given him the history of a life full of innocence, she burst out in tears, and entered upon that part of her story in which he himself had so great a share. My behaviour, says she, has, I fear, been the death of a man who had no other fault but that of loving me too much. Heaven only knows how dear he was to me whilst he lived, and bow bit. ter the remembrance of him has been to me since his death. She here paused, and lifted up her eyes, that streamed with tears, towards the father; who was so moved with the sense of her sorrows, that he could
only command his voice, which was broke with sighs and sobbings, so far as to bid her proceed. She followed his directions, and in a flood of tears poured out her heart before him. The father could not forbear weeping aloud, insomuch that in the agonies of bis grief the seat shook under him. Constantia, who thought the good mau was thus moved by his compas. sion towards her, and by the horror of her guilt, proceeded with the atmost contrition to acquaint him with that vow of virginity in w bich she was going to en. gage herself, as the proper atonement for her sins, and the only sacrifice she could make to the memory of Theodosius. The father, who by this time had pretty well composed himself, burst out again in tears upon hearing tbat name to which he had been so long disnsed, and upon receiving this instance of an unparalleled fidelity from one who he thought had several years since given herself up to the possession of another. Amidst the interruptions of bis sorrow, seeing his penitent overwhelmed with grief, he was only able to bid her from time to time be comforted-to tell her that her sins were forgiven her-that ber guilt was not so great as she apprehended that she should not suffer herself to be afficted above measure. After which he recovered himself enough to give the absolu. tion in form; direciing her at the same tiine to repair to him again the next day, that he might encourage her in the pious resolutions she had taken, and give her suitable exhortations for her behaviour in it. Constantia retired, and the next morning renewed her applications. Theodosius having manued his soul with proper thoughts and reflections, exerted himself on this occasion in the best manner he could to ani. mate his penitent in the course of life she was entered upon, and wear out of her mind those groundless fears and apprehensions which had taken possession of it; concluding with a promise to her, that he would from time to time continue his admonitions when she should have taken upon her the boly veil. The rules of our respective orders, says he, will not permit that i should see you, but you may assure yourself not only of having a place in my prayers, but of receiving such frequent instructions as I can convey to you by letters. Go on cheerfully in the glorious course you have an. dertaken, and you will quickly find such a peace anıl satisfaction in your mind, which it is not in the power of the world to give.
Constantia's heart was so elevated with the discourse of Father Francis, that the very next day she entered upon her vow. As soon as the solemnities of her reception were over, she retired, as it is usual, with the abbess into her own apartment.
The abbess had been informed the night before of all that had passed between her noviciate and Father Francis: from whom she now delivered to her the fol lowing letter:
" As the first-fruits of those joys and consolations wbich yon may expect from the life you are now engaged in, I must acquaint you that Theodosius, whose death sits so heavy upon your thoughts, is still alive : and that the father, to whom you have confessed yourself, was once that Theodosius whom you so much la. ment. The love which we have bad for one another will make us more happy in its disappointment than it could have done in its success. Providence has disposed of us for our advantage, though not according to our wishes. Consider your Theodosius still as dead, but assure yourself of one who will not cease to pray for you in Father
Constantia saw that the hand-writing agreed with the contents of the letter: and upon reflecting on the voice of the person, the behaviour, and above all the extreme sorrow of the father during her confession, she discovered Theodosius in every particular. After baving wept with tears of joy, It is enough, says she, Theodosius is still in being: I shall live with comfort, and die in peace.
The letters which the father sent her afterwards are yei extant in the nunnery where she resided; and are often read to the young religious, in order to inspire them with good resolations and sentiments of virtue. It so happened, that after Constantia had lived about ten years in the cloister, a violent fever broke out in the place, which swept away great multitudes, and among others Theodosius. Upon his death-bed he sent bis benediction in a very moving manner to Constautia, who at that time was herself so far gone in the same fatal distemper, that she lay delirious. Upon the interval which generally precedes death in sick. nesses of this nature, the abbess, finding that the phy. sicians had given her over, told her that Theodosius was just gone before her, and that he had sent her his benediction in bis last moments. Constantia received it with pleasure: And now, says she, if I do not ask any thing improper, let me be buried by Theodosius. My vow reaches no farther than the grave. What I ask is, I hope, no violation of it-She died soon after, and was interred according to her request.
Their tombs are still to be seen, with a short Latin inscription over them to the following purpose:
“ Here lie the bodies of Father Francis and Sister Constance. They were lovely in their lives, and in their deaths they were not divided."