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fretful, and spoke unkindly to the girl. Her mistress recollected, that she had seen a little of this fretfulness before; but considering how much pain she suffered, and how patiently she bore it all, she could not find it in her heart to reprove her. Thinking it necessary, however, on this occasion, she chose a suitable time, and sitting down by her side, began by asking her whether she could now live one day, without sin. After some hesitation, she replied, "I don't want to be wicked as I used to be, but when the girls make my bed badly, I can't be patient; and then I speak angry words." Her mistress said, does Christ like such impatient feelings and angry words? “No, Mama; and I am afraid that Christ will not love me.” Do you remember, when you were last at the other Mama's house, how you cried ? Was that good ? “No, Mama; the boys said their lessons so loud, that I could not bear it, and I was angry with them.” Did you think that Christ saw you, when you behaved so ? “I did not think of Christ then ; but he saw me; and I am sorry and afraid because of that sin.” Christ is ready to forgive all you have done, if you are really sorry and pray to him. Upon hearing this, she wanted to pray in words suitable to the occasion; and her mistress tried to make a good use of the opportunity, by teaching her to discipline herself, and speak kindly to all the girls, who came to wait upon her; and that if she was patient and quiet, it would be very pleasing to Christ, who sent this sickness, and constantly watched over her. She replied, “I shall not forget what Mah-aa says to me, though I should be ever so ill."
March 7th. She was very patient, and spoke kindly to all the girls. Her mistress not being well, she was left all day at the school house, in the care of Mah Lah. And she had a great deal of religious conversation with the girls, relating to them her own experience, and urging them to seek an interest in the Lord Jesus Christ, and prepare to die and follow her to heaven.
Mar. 10. She was very ill, and only uttered a few expressions of love and gratitude. “How inuch I love you, Mah-aa,” she would repeat; and how good you are to keep me by you, and give me every thing I want, and let me be your little daughter. How much I love the teacher, who took me away from my old master, and gave me to you. I did not know God then, did I ? I could not know him then. But now I know and love him. And I am not afraid to die, for I want to see God. I am very ill-I can't live—I don't want to get well gradually, and live here. I want to go to heaven." March 12th. She was a little better this morning, and able to
Her mistress said, You are a little better this morning, and will probably live four or five days longer. Are you not
"I can't say I am glad, Mah-aa ; I very much want to go to heaven.” But you are sometimes a little afraid of death, are you not ? “No, Mah-aa, I am not at all afraid to die.” The subject of her former sufferings, when a slave, being introduced, she told of several cruel deeds, which we had not heard of before, and mentioned some of her master's relatives, who used to join in beating her most unmercifully. IIer mistress asked her where she
glad of it?
would have all those wicked people go, when they died. She replied, "I would have them all go to heaven.” But don't you hate such wicked people? “No, Mah-aa, I don't hate any body.” Can you pray for them? “I want to pray for them, but my cough will stop my words.” Shall I pray for them? “Do, Mah-aa, and I will listen; that don't make me cough.” Her mistress then assisted her devotions by a few simple expressions, and felt that Jesus listened with pleasure, while the dying slave-girl prayed for her enemies.
Mar. 13th. This morning, Meh Shway-ee heard one of the youngest scholars making a very unpleasant noise, which distressed her. Her mistress said nothing, but waited to see how she would bear it. She did not speak, at first, but composed her countenance, and then said, “Sister Nyoon, please not make such a noise here in Mama's room, I beseech you.” Then turning to her mistress, she inquired whether she had been impatient, or had spoken unkindly to any of the girls, since the day that she was reproved for that fault. She said, “I try to remember, every day, what you said; and when they do any thing wrong, I try to bear it, and speak lovingly to them.” Towards evening, when her mistress gave her some medicine, she said, " It is very bitter, but I want to take it, for I know it will make me easier, because Mah-aa says it will. Mah-aa never tells me what is false. When she says it will make me easier, it does so. And when it is bitter, she never tells me it is sweet, but says she gives me bitter things, because she loves me, and wants to make me easy. When Mah-aa says she will give me any thing, I always get it; and when she says any thing will hurt me, I don't want to cat it, because I know she tells me the truth. I love to hear Mah-aa's words, because they are all true."
By means of a gentle opiate, she rested very well, the fore part of the night of the 13th. Towards morning, her mistress hearing her begin to be restless, got up; and having done what she could for her comfort, sat down by her bedside. On perceiving this, she looked up and said, “ Please to go to bed now, Mah-aa.” No, replied her mistress, I will sit by you a little while, for I know you feel lonely, when you can't sleep. She seemed extremely faint and low, and wanted to drink or to be moved, almost every moment; and yet she soon said again, “ Do go to bed, Mah-aa; I am afraid you will be ill, and then you can't stay with me at all; and my mind is distressed, when your head aches.” Her mistress assured her, that she was quite well, and felt it a pleasure to sit by her. This seemed to relieve her anxiety, and she began to talk cheerfully. Among other things, she said, "I did not ask to sit in your lap once yesterday. Mah-aa looked so tired, that I thought I would try to do without it. I can't tell how much I love you. I love all the three teachers and the other Mama, and grandmamma, and all the girls, and every body that I know; but I love Mah-aa more than all; for you do every thing for me by night April, 1829.
and by day, and teach me to pray, and tell me about the Lord Jesus Christ, and about heaven; and let me be your little daughter.
Mar. 14th. In the morning, on seeing Mr Wade go out for exercise, she urged her mistress to go also. No, replied her mistress, I had rather stay with my little sick daughter. “Do go," she said, “I should be very sorry,
should get ill.” Her mistress assured her that she felt quite well, and that if she went out, the sun would be hot before she could return. The signs of dissolution now appeared. She felt the change, and inquired for Mr Judson and Mah Lah. Why do you inquire for them ? asked her mistress. “I want to have them sit down here,” she said, " so that I can see them, for I am now going; I can stay no longer.” When Mr Judson came in, she anticipated that he would wish to know the state of her mind, and therefore said, “I can't talk much now; but I am not afraid to die. The Lord Jesus Christ has taken away all my sins. But I am in great distress, it seems as if I could not breathe.” This, said her mistress, is the pain of death; try to bear it patiently, my little daughter; it will soon be over. You can't say your prayers now; do you want us all to pray for you? Slie looked at us and said, “ Yes, do pray for me.” When she seemed a little easier, she said, “I can eat nothing more,
Mahaa.” No, replied her mistress, you can eat nothing more here;but would you like to go to-day, and eat in heaven, with Christ and the angels, and all the disciples of Christ, who have gone there? “ Yes,” she replied, “I want to go now.” Her mistress said, Are you willing to leave me and go? She fixed her eyes on her most beloved earthly friend, and with looks full of gratitude and affection, hesitated a moment, and then said, “ Yes, I want to go now; and you will not stay long, will you, Mah-aa.”
About 7 o'clock, she requested Mah Lah to bring her a kind of rice cake from the market, of which she was very fond. Mah Lah asked her, whether she thought she could eat it. “Perhaps I can eat a little,” she replied, “but I want to give some to Mah-aa.” Mah Lah told her, she could not get the red kind so early in the morning; upon which, the poor little thing looked up, and asked her mistress, “Do you like the white kind, Man-aa?" And being assured that she did, she seemed satisfied, and told Mah Lah to get the white kind. When it was brought, however, she took no notice of it. As she was lying quite stupid now, we went out to breakfast. Soon after, she inquired for the cake, and tried to eat a little with some tea, but could not swallow. She then requested Mah Lah to carry the remainder of it to the table, and divide it between the two teachers and her mistress. It was the last thing she had in the world to give away; and she gave it as the last token of her gratitude and love.
Soon after this, she was much distressed for breath, and said, “Oh, Mah-aa, I can't breathe; my breath will stop.” Yes, replied her mistress, it will soon stop, ny little daughter. This is death; do you know that you are dying.” “ Yes, Mah-aa, I know that I am dying.” Well, this is the will of Christ, and you love Christ; therefore try to bear it patiently; will soon be over. On hearing this, she looked up, and with emphasis replied, “ I do love
phe of the preceding generation, cannot fail to attract its observation. Hence have originated the various and multiplied efforts for the moral and religious instruction of youth in our own, and in foreign countries; and hence, the union of prayer for divine in fluence upon these efforts.
If the heirs of obscurity and of remote heathen impiety and ignorance are not overlooked, it may be expected, that the thousands who are presented in our Colleges and other Seminaries, as destined to control the moral interests of multitudes of their fellow men, will inspire a solicitude, not to be denied an utterance in incessant prayer, and the most vigilant activity. Those Institutions which come under the denomination of Academies, should receive no ordinary share of interest, as they contain a numerous collection of youth ; and in them is often decided, the momentous question involving the salvation of themselves and others. But amid the happy scenes of revivals, that have been exbibited in our country, we have been permitted to witness the holy influence descending upon our Colleges, and consecrating to the service of God many, who were ready to enter, with the greatest zeal and efficiency, into the service of the world. Similar scenes have been witnessed in our nurseries of literature, from the Primary school to the University, affording occasion of joy to all who highly appreciate the soul's redemption, and presenting prospects, the most animating to the church.
It is, however, a fact, well known to those who have regularly perused our religious journals, that revivals have become less frequent among our youth, who are undergoing a course of academic instruction. An Academy or College is not known, in which a revival now exists. Why this truly melancholy change? Shall not this question be discussed in the fear of God? and however much reproof may be conveyed by the answer, and wherever it may apply, shall we not faithfully investigate and declare it? The writer of these strictures, being himself connected with the Faculty of one of these Institutions, apprehends not, that he will be judged totally unqualified to undertake the task, nor that he will be censured for the selection of causes, which he will now propose, as operating in a suspension of the blessings so much desired.
1. The speculations that have been indulged by the friends of revivals, concerning their nature, and “the manner of conducting them,” have been of unhappy tendency. They may have furnished the public with many true and even valuable remarks; but they have exhibited evangelical Christians in the unfavorable attitude of collision ; they have had a tendency to diminish the reverence, which had previously prevailed in relation to the mysterious operations of the Holy Spirit; and they have apparently formed a partial denial of those operations, while they have been represented as capable of being controlled by human instrumentality. Many qualifying terms and statements have accompanied these discussions; and yet it must candidly be acknowledged, that a liability to the inference, has not been effectually prevented. Now these speculations have operated unfavorably to the general prevalence of