and fears alternate; but now the blessed discipline of the Covenant has been exercised; I have witnessed it, I have felt it; suffered the rod with them and for them, but waited for the fruits in hope; and glory to thee, dear Husband and Father, I have not waited in vain. Thou has written vanity, and opened our eyes to read vanity, written on every earthly enjoyment, except so far as thou art enjoyed in them. Thou hast enabled not only thy aged servant, but thy young ones, to put a blank into thy hand, and to say, choose thou for us. We take hold of thy Covenant, and choose it for our portion. Is not this, O Lord, the full amount of my desires? Thou wilt finish the work in thy own time, and by means of thy appointing. Amen. Lord do as thou hast said.

October 4, 1795.

Why, O why, is my spirit still depressed? why these sobs? Father, forgive. Jesus wept. I weep, but acquiesce. This day, two months, the Lord delivered my Jessie, his Jessie, from a body of sin and death, finished the good work he had begun, perfected what concerned her, trimmed her lamp, and carried her triumphing through the valley of the shadow of death. She ovrecame through the blood of the Lamb.

I rejoiced in the Lord's work, and was thankful that the one, the only thing, I had asked for her, was now completed. I saw her delivered from much corruption within, from strong and peculiar temptation without. I had seen her often staggering, sometimes falling under the rod; I had heard her earnestly wish for deliverance from sin, and when death approach

ed, she was more than satisfied; said she had been a great sinner, but she had a great Saviour; praised him, and thanked him, for all his dealings with her for hedging her in, for chastising her; and even prayed that sin and corruption might be destroyed if the body should be dissolved to effect it, The Lord fulfilled her desire, and I may add, mine. He lifted upon her the light of his countenance; revived her languid graces; increased her faith and hope; loosed her from earthly concerns; and made her rejoice in the stability of his Covenant, and to sing, "all is well, all is well, good is the will of the Lord." I did rejoice, I do rejoice; but O Lord, thou knowest my frame; she was my pleasant companion, my affectionate child: my soul feels a want. O fill it up with more of thy presence, give yet more communications of thyself.

We are yet one in Christ our head; united in him and although she shall not return unto me, I shall go to her, and then our communion will be more full, more delightful, as it will be perfectly free from sin. Christ shall be our bond of union, and we shall be fully under the influence of it.

Let me then gird up the loins of my mind, and set forward to serve my day and generation, to finish my course. The Lord will perfect what concerns me, and when it shall please him, he will unclothe me, break down these prison walls, and admit me into the happy society of his redeemed and glorified members: then shall he wipe away all tears from my eyes, and I shall taste the joys which are at his right hand, and be satisfied for ever more.

January 3, 1796. PHILIPPIANS iv. 4. Rejoice in the Lord alway, and again I say rejoice. Let your moderation be known unto all men, the Lord is at hand.

Be careful for nothing, but in every thing, by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known unto God. And the peace of God which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.

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Christ Jesus!-what does not this name comprehend! He is mine, and all is mine. I do rejoice in the Lord, yea, more or less I rejoice always. This heart of mine is sensible to every human affliction; my tears flow often and fast I weep for myself, and still more for others; but in these very moments of heart-wringing bitterness, there is a secret joy, that my Jesus is near: that he sees, knows, and pities. That he is Jehovah as well as Jesus, could have prevented the affliction under which I groan; but for my good, and the good of those near and dear to me, he suffered it, or prepared it. The good of his people is connected with his glory, they cannot be separated: therefore, Father, glorify thy name; I rejoice, and will rejoice. The Lord can remove, and will remove the affliction, the moment it has answered the gracious purpose for which it was sent. I would not wish it one moment sooner. While it lies heavy, he is my Almighty friend, my rest, my staff of support.

In time of trouble he shall hide me in his pavilion; in the secret of his tabernacle shall he hide me; he shall set me up upon a rock, PSALM Xxvii. 5.

The Lord is my strength and my shield; my heart trusted in him, and I am helped, therefore my heart greatly

rejoiceth, with my song I will praise him, and in his strength, and by by his grace, let my moderation be known unto all men. My Lord is at hand, at hand to support, at hand to overrule, at hand to deliver. Therefore I rejoice always.

Blessed be God for the heart easing, heart soothing privilege, of casting all my cares upon him, and for the blessed assurance that he careth for me and mine: that he allows, invites, yea commands me to be careful for nothing, but in all things, by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving, to let my request be made known unto him, who is man, and touched with the feeling of our infirmities, (Jesus wept,) and God, the Almighty God, to support, overrule, deliver. Therefore my heart rejoiceth always.

May 28, 1796.

This is the Anniversary of my dear Jessie's birth, no more to call us together on earth; but I yet remember it, as a day in which our God was merciful to me, and made me the mother of an heir of salvation. I bless, I praise, my covenant God, who enabled me to dedicate her to him before she was born, and to ask only one thing for her, as for myself, even an interest in his great salvation, leaving it to him to order the means, time, and manner, as of her natural birth, and ripening age, so of her spiritual birth, and ripening for glory; he accepted the charge, and he has finished the work, to his own glory, to her eternal happiness, and my joy and comfort. I have witnessed remaining corruption fighting hard against her, and bringing her again and again into captivity to the law of sin and death, warring against her. I have witnessed the rod of

God lie heavy upon her, according to the tenor of the Covenant, when she forsook his laws and went astray: when she walked not in his judgments, but wandered from his way, he visited her faults with rods, and her sins with chastisements, but his loving kindness he never took from her, (though he often hid it,) nor altered the word which he had spoken, that he would never leave her, never forsake her; that in due time he would deliver her from all her enemies. I witnessed her desires to be delivered from the world, and the body, and taken home to the bosom of her God; since that appeared at times, the only way she could be delivered from sin. I witnessed her lamenting her unfruitfulness, her unsteadiness: I heard her exclaim, "Oh, what a sinner! what a great sinner!" and "Oh what a Saviour! O the goodness of God in hedging me in, and saving me from myself; his Covenant stands fast, it is established, it is sure." I witnessed a God pardoning sin, yet taking vengeance on inventions. I witnessed the sinner, after being sixteen years in the school of Christ, (taught by his ministers, and most effectually by his rod,) taking shelter in the city of refuge, in the atonement of God's providing, and in a surety rightcousness, and finishing her struggles with "all is well!” my heart echoed, and does echo, and will to all eternity, "all is well." Glory to God, sing not unto her, not unto me, not unto any creature, but to God be the glory, that she is now delivered from a body of sin and death, and made meet to be a partaker with the saints in light. HALLELUJAH.