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own doings, and a propensity to attribute what is only due to Divine direction and blessing, to some other source, at least, to be too much elated if success attend. It is easier to express in words than to declare in action 'Not unto us, O Lord, not unto us, but unto Thy name give the glory!' Do not our inmost hearts acknowledge that in reality to Him, as the mover of every good thought, and the supporter of every good act, to Him alone the praise is justly due, and that instruments can only, as instruments, fulfil His pleasure.

"8th mo. 5th. The thought that the state of the Otaheitians was very favourable to improvement, from the plenty that their country presents preventing anxious thought about the means of life, and temptation to steal, is much before me; and I do think the misery of the Irish, and some of the English, increases the difficulty of doing right, and increases the temptation to crime. Oh! that some wise and generous measures, yet simple and efficient, could be adopted to employ idle hands, and lead to the colonizing system!

"Whatever may be my future allotment the present season will be remembered as a season of close conflict, sometimes cheered by the opening prospects, amidst a state of combat, and sometimes depressed by a sense of suffering which, perhaps, might not be so keenly felt, and which can only be effectually overcome in present circumstances, by a reliance on Divine Providence, and an entire submission to whatever may appear to prepare me for the more fully accomplishing what I have apprehended to be my calling-to live the servant of the poor and the uninstructed. Let me be satisfied to live a life of abstraction, of divestment, as

to property, and seek only to be an humble follower of Him whose kingdom was not of this world; and thus neither desire nor seek to live as in the world's spirit, but, above all things, to be perfectly redeemed.

"6th. Another claim, besides that of Africa, dwells strongly on my mind, and that is the state of our metropolis; in some of the most miserable and disorderly of its population, presenting scenes as much opposed to real Christianity as light is opposed to darkness. I want these to be brought more fully into our view, and the question received into our hearts, 'What can be done for the prevention of crime and misery in this land? Our prisons are filled, our laws convict, condemn, and transport, —our watchmen are robbed of their rest, and a great expense is incurred to guard property against plunder. Could not more be done to prevent the disposition to plunder? To give the lowest of the people occupation, and the means of plenty? To visit them in Christian kindness,-to have no poor family unknown or unnoticed? And, since I have felt it my path to serve the poor, let me pursue with steadiness what is required from me here, and I may then, should life be spared, willingly proceed to foreign duties.

"The weekly loan of tracts will, I apprehend, be the first step for bringing arrangements forward for the amelioration of the state of the poor: afterwards various efforts may follow, as schools, meetings for instruction, &c.

"I expect soon to enter upon a visit to St. Giles's, and, as far as I can judge, feel released from the present further prosecution of duty on the coast of Africa, except by correspondence; and

here may I rest, and feel thankful that my path is so clear and plain.

"The consciousness of our proceedings, with regard to leaving Africa, having been thought by some rash and unauthorized, and by others lacking in firmness and perseverance, has been painfully felt, even although my dear friends who have sympathized with us have shown great kindness; and my way, in various respects, both here and in the north, has been opened beyond what I could have expected. I cannot condemn myself, either in going or returning. I think we were willing to suffer, and trust strength may be given to continue so, and to do the work of the day, according to the ability afforded.

"17th. At the morning-meeting of 8th mo. 3rd, I was solemnly impressed with the feeling that those who were called to the work of the ministry, or other important stations in the militant church, should dwell in a willingness to be prepared for the work of the Lord, whenever and whatever it might be that should be called for at their hands.

"On the 11th was brought with lively feeling to my view that declaration of the apostle, Not as though I had already attained, either were already perfect-but this one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth,' &c.

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Oh! that Ireland could be essentially served, in the state of her poor population being so brought into early notice as that the dear little ones could be generally taught.

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Affecting accounts are received by the Church Missionary-Society of continued mortality among their missionaries at Sierra-Leone. G. Nylander

has finished his course. Five others have lately died, even though it has been mostly the dry season; and four are returning home to re

cruit.

"In returning from London last evening the stage stopped a few moments at the higher end of Tottenham before a public-house; a window was thrown open, and some dreadfully light remarks on an oath that had been uttered pierced me with grief and shame for the degradation of human nature, and almost with astonishment in the sense of the long-suffering of the all-powerful Creator. What ought to be our patience under the wrongs we may receive from human beings, when we remember the forbearance thus manifested! How ought those who have been permitted to feel and know in some degree the power of the Truth to be willing to lay out their efforts for the awakening of those who are so lost in darkness as to be indeed a disgrace in conduct to a land professing to be Christian! Because of drunkenness, and its wretched fruits, the land mourneth! How little should we esteem any labour to bring up the younger part of society in a detestation of this sin! Let Christians unite to stem the current which is thus leading poor human beings into ruin. What is our ease or self-indulgence to be placed against the sin which is going on, in some directions in our land.

"Sometimes I have been induced to forbear sitting down quietly alone from feeling so unprepared, and afraid of not attaining to more than a form of retirement, but it is brought to my view that we must supplicate inwardly, as we may be enabled in the little strength we have, for ability

to resign ourselves to the guidance of Infinite Love, and to follow Him day by day. How has my mind been impressed in witnessing what I mentioned of sin and profaneness last evening, with the consciousness that the Most High is indeed infinite in mercy,-infinite in condescension, -in still seeking the restoration of His fallen and unworthy creature, man!

"Let England and America and France show an enlightened and liberal policy in promoting the growth of knowledge, and consequent power, among the working-classes, whilst the more jealous of neighbouring nations look on, and see the fruits of such proceedings: they will be convinced, in time, that industry is the nerve of power, and freedom the spur to industry, and riches and abundance the fruits of industry: yet let this power be rightly directed and guarded by real Christian instruction and the influence of Christian care in counteracting that perversion of the advantages and provisions of the world to which human nature is so prone, and which perversion often, in the ordering of Divine Providence, leads again to misery and want, as well as to disorder of various kinds.

"A stroke of conviction came home to my mind some days since, when suffering under the view of the future, and the apprehension lest the sense of obligation should feel as a weight upon my spirits. 'What then!' it seemed to be spoken to my heart, 'shall the poor, to whom thy mind has been led in compassion, and the ignorant, whom thou hast felt bound to endeavour to instruct, shall scenes of duty which are open before thee be turned from unheeded, because there are difficulties to thy

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