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It should be remembered that we have not to choose agents from companies of intelligent and well-educated Christians, but from a state of society in which little more is considered than what relates to the perishing dust; and we should not be very sanguine in our expectations of finding characters wholly such as we should desire. We have rather to exercise towards them and with them patience and forbearance, persevering instruction and fervent prayer.

"12th. O, my God, I thank Thee for the favour Thou hast shown to Thine unworthy servant, in permitting my attention now, and in days that are past, to be turned to the sacred truths contained in the holy revelation Thou hast been pleased to give in the Scriptures, and for causing my mind to dwell and feed on those Divine truths with deep consolation. Be pleased to direct my heart in the instruction of these dear children now with me, and of those intermediate teachers upon whom, for want of more strength, I am obliged so much to depend. Help me in patience and Christian love, and give me long-suffering where difficulties may arise, in order to endeavour to lead them to Thee as the Fountain of wisdom and goodness, and to seek for them that redemption in Christ Jesus in which, by the renewing of the mind, they may be taught to prove what is Thy good and acceptable and perfect will.

"25th. My strength has been much reduced by indisposition, and the medical attendant expressed his opinion that an early return to England would

be right. My way is not clear, I must wait to feel more certain that my removal from hence is in the Divine Will, ere I can fully conclude. I dread returning without a sufficient evidence. God will, I trust, help and direct me, and in the return of a little strength I must make all requisite preparations, and then either go or quietly rest in my present position. To see and feel that there are claims in England is not enough, unless it is clearly manifested that those claims are such as to call for my present return. The best way to serve our generation is to seek to do the will of God, whether the work appointed be of higher or lower standing in the sight of men. O, that my Heavenly Father may be pleased to permit me to see when the cloud should remove, and until then to abide here. Much as there may be to invite among endeared friends in England, there is nothing I so greatly desire as to be found in the Lord's will wherever that may be, and to dwell and move in that only, because it is His will. Though for months to come my prospect may be confined to a rough mountain side, and not even the sky above it visible from my sitting room, yet if it be appointed for me, the mental and spiritual light will be brighter than it could be in any other place. I gratefully feel and own that protecting mercy has been sensibly near me in this station. On having my dear children with me on First day, and in seeing the critical position in which they are, my heart sunk at the thought of leaving them.

"26th. My merciful Heavenly Father, unworthy as I am to be an agent in Thy cause, it has yet appeared to me, as though the way was

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preparing for my remaining here, and for this station to be occupied by these poor, deserted, oppressed little ones, for whom my heart has mourned. O, be pleased in Thy goodness to preserve me from quitting this post before the appointed time.

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'My mind has this morning been under concern respecting a newly-arrived slave-ship, said to contain nearly five hundred people. I cannot think it right that we should pass them by : I have therefore proposed to our matron that we should receive any number of additional children up to one hundred, that is, seventy-three more than our present number. I hope to write on this subject to-morrow to the Governor.

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"31st. To-day I have received the Governor's He informs me there are but few girls in the newly-arrived vessel. He proposes to send me twenty in addition, and recommends that without further help I should not go beyond that number, which will be forty-seven.

"6th mo. 1st. For many years past I have been in the habit of regarding the morning hours as very precious, and I generally devoted them to mental exertions, unless something unforeseen occurred. Here I am often obliged to give up these precious hours to many little domestic concerns, which if delayed would cause much inconvenience to the family; and then when wearied I sit down to occupations calling for closer thought. But I am happy in my engagement; my young teachers, domestics, and children improve in disposition and attention. Thanks be to Him who gives me every needful blessing. This room to a stranger might look dark and gloomy, as, from the height

of the opposite mountain, we do not see the sky without going out on the piazza; yet this room is to me very pleasant, and the association of ideas combined with it is such as to endear the scene whenever I enter it.

"Several parents have brought their sick infants. to me, and desired of me medical help; my matron and I did all that we could for them. I do not name this as any great point of usefulness, yet I much wish that something stated in this way could be done for the people in each liberated African village. I greatly wish that some of our Society may come out: I will not suppose it will be otherwise, nor rest in the expediency of sending others, as the Church Missionary Society do the German Lutherans, for want of clergymen of their own being prepared to resign their charge in England for an African station.

"Our dear precious friends at home are now looking to the termination of their annual assembly. O, that even in its close the crowning assurance of Divine Goodness may flow among them even as the waves of the sea, and may they be enabled to move with the tide in its appointed

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"4th. The new girls, fifteen in number, arrived to-day. It was a heart-sinking sight to observe the dull, dreary countenances of some of them, and the little appearance they had of either intelligence or lively feeling. Some of them really appeared (although the accompanying note called them selected) the most hopeless and unpromising specimens of children. I have been told that a number have been apprenticed. My matron says those who want apprentices choose them from the

whole number before they are sent to the schools. If it be so, it is attempting to raise from the most hopeless those who should be useful to others, and is far from doing justice to the cause of education. Some plan should be devised for taking those to teach who are likely to make the best use of instruction, so far as can be judged from appearances. My heart ached when looking at the diseased state of these poor children, and I thought five of the fifteen must go to the hospital; but after they were well washed, and rubbed with palm oil, and had dined, the matron thought they looked so much better that she could manage them herself.

"In observing the kind, lively, affectionate, and sympathetic expression of countenance and manner of some of my Kosso girls, I felt comforted in believing that under proper care the African character might be trained to be receptive of good, and very lovely.

"5th. Never, but on one memorable day, do I remember to have experienced so great a change of feeling, as from the depressing fears of yesterday for my newly-arrived children, contrasted with my hopes for them to-day. It is true, indeed, that they have had in the night three petty wars about their bed-covering, but these do not discourage. To-day, when arrayed in little garments, and introduced to the piazza for me to try to learn their names and nations, the affectionate smile soon began to glisten on countenances that but yesterday I had been ready to regard almost dead as to mental cultivation, and incapable of exhibiting that degree of animation which one longs to see on every human face.

"O, that my dear friends at home may regard

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