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ation of the very vilest, and wills that all should be saved and come to a knowledge of the truth. Let this memento be ever before our minds, Thou, Lord, art good, and ready to forgive;' and let Thy creatures remember that Thou hast made this the law which shall condemn themselves, if they do not seek sincerely to follow Thee.
« 8th mo. 29th. I would not close this day without acknowledging Thy goodness, O my heavenly Father, in permitting me to see the desire of my heart in the instruction of dear African children through their own languages. The trial was not made until the Aku girls were brought last week, and this is but the fifth day of their instruction; yet, even now, the success exceeds my hopes. I feel that what I have long desired, and seen in distant prospect, is now indeed reality. I wish to wait a little before teaching them any English, and I am confirmed in this by seeing to-day how readily they could, in their own tongue, name tangible objects, as head, ears, &c.
“30th. I will thank Thee, O my Father, for Thy unmerited goodness in visiting the mind of Thy unworthy servant with a sense of
and love that consoles, although some outward circumstances appear far from promising days of peace and rest in some parts of my family. Unpromising as things now appear with regard to some, I must yet hope, remembering that one other member of our household, who has been perhaps a greater cause of disturbance than any, is now in the hand of Divine goodness an agent in contributing to my greatest comfort.
« 9th mo. 3rd. We have to-day very heavy rain. There is a kind of disabling effect in damp
rainy weather, particularly with regard to mental occupations; so that it is a cause of thankfulness, when we poor Europeans can keep the wheels in motion at all, no wonder if they sometimes move heavily. I bave need to be humbled in the feeling of how little I effect, and how fast the precious time flies away. O, for more dispatch of work, and more efficiency in it! I want, too, a conquering and unconquerable patience, also charity, and more disposition to prayer.
“ 5th. I believe that in the most healthful state of the mind there will be a disposition to attend to little things in their season, also to matters of business and minor duties, as well as to be conscientiously engaged not to neglect the most important, or to suffer a worldly spirit to lead to more attention than is due to lesser things, or suffer them to supersede duties in which yet greater responsibility is involved.
Last evening, not being well, my matron paid me a visit; whilst a teacher gave instruction to the children, as a substitute for the part I take with them when in health. The matron gave me some affecting details of what the Kosso girls had told her of the wretched state of their country from almost perpetual wars, for the purpose of making slaves ; so that they can seldom retire to rest at night and feel secure from an alarm. They appear to have been in this way habituated to cry out altogether when anything disturbs them in the night, as they several times did on first coming here. One of our children, about seven years old, has several scars on her limbs, of which she gives the following account. Her father and mother fled from the slave-dealer, and her mother from carry
ing her was hindered from moving so quickly as without her she could have done. The father caught the child away from her, and threw it upon a fire, saying, it was better for the child to die, than for all to be made slaves. The mother could not bear this, but ran back, and took up her child. The father ran on, and the mother proceeded as fast as she could with her poor burnt child, until she got to a place where she thought she could stop securely to dress the little creature's wounds, but in doing this she was taken, and the child was soon separated from her, and our poor little Towah saw neither father nor mother any more. Ninga's father would not leave his children, but brought them all four away in his flight. Ninga says, the pursuers killed her father, and she does not know to what place were taken her mother and her two younger sisters; one sister older than herself was brought to this colony, and probably put out as an apprentice. The children say they sometimes flee in great numbers from one town to another, and hope to rest for a night, but while they sleep, their restless enemy pursues them, and again all is distress and commotion. One of the girls has an anxious countenance, and not having been very well of late, her anxiety appears more evident: perhaps her indisposition is occasioned by secret sorrow preying on her mind. Sometimes, when she has done her little washing, and whilst others are finishing theirs, she will sit down pensive by the brook, and fixing her eyes on the opposite side of the mountain on one particular spot, will silently weep, and seem not to wish to be questioned as to the cause. One day she told the matron's daughter, who accompanies them to the brook, that there
was a house and farm on that mountain that looked like her father's farm, and it was the sight of it which made her weep.
“My mind is much turned to the subject of cherishing by every right means the disposition to devotional feeling; and I do apprehend that some in looking only at the fear of uttering expressions unfelt, have not on the other hand been sufficiently aware of the danger of supineness and total want of feeling. Should we not, if sincere, always be prepared to utter some expressions of devotion ? Supplications for what we need are very different from professions of experience to which we have not attained. These are, doubtless, abominations in the sight of God, when offered as a substitute for obedience and devotedness of heart and life. Still one extreme, although it may induce an opposite, cannot call for, or even justify an extreme on the other hand; and we ought to think whether we have not in our own society too much renounced the practice of vocal supplication for wants that are common to all who are, or desire to be, sincere professors of Christianity; and indeed to every human being awakened to a sense of the sacred truths of the religion of Jesus.
“ 18th. I have had an opportunity more desired than expected of free communication with one of the German ministers, and felt relieved and comforted in having openly, and I trust with Christian kindness, expressed my sentiments on several subjects, as to the position of things at present in this mission. A kind note from another in the course of the day gave me opportunity for a little further communication on these subjects. My heart longs for the prosperity of the Church Missionary So
ciety in this place. They were, I think, the first who took charge of the poor liberated African children; and though no doubt there was much need to improve upon the first plans, even as to the preservation of the life and health of those, yet believing that not a few in this cause have sought to labour diligently and faithfully, I long to see the society rejoicing in the fruit of their labours.
“ 18th. This has been a Sabbath of peace, such as I feel utterly unworthy of; but our Lord is indeed merciful and good. O, that fidelity and love might be the daily, the hourly return. I feel that, as regards myself, self-will and self-choosing must be made subject to a higher influence; for if ever I enjoy peace, Jesus must rule over all; must break down as well as build up, and it is only in entire subjection to Him that we can be free indeed.
“In looking forward to a school in England, whether of black, coloured, or white children, I should prefer one on a simple scale, like Ackworth School, yet to give the children a thoroughly good English education. I love simplicity and industry, and should prefer having the care of children from a humble station, rather than such as were in danger of being enervated in body and mind from not being under any necessity of working. It does not appear to be my calling to administer exclusively to the rich, but to those, whether rich or poor, who are to be agents in useful occupations, and who should be trained in great simplicity.
"I cannot but hope, from what dear friends in England most interested in African affairs have expressed, that a school for black children will be consonant with their judgment, and that when the work before me shall be terminated, I may, with