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their concurrence, have a few of my present flock in my native land, there to proceed with elementary lessons in the languages of each. O, how would such a prospect lighten all labours here! It would be the realization of what for fifteen years has been so much before me. Until last year I had not looked for female pupils, yet since, it has constantly appeared to me that for the elementary part on which I would enter in England, females would serve the purpose as well as boys, and be more fully under my own care. This, then, is the home to which I look; an African and English school, a depository for elementary lessons attached to it, and leisure to pursue the work of forming elementary lessons, and lessons of Christian instruction in both the African and the English languages. Should life not be given me to see this desire effected, let me tenderly recommend some of
beloved friends to take it up, and this, I trust, will be their own desire.
“ 20th. It is a great consolation to find that often, when my whole frame is weak, my mind is yet as much awake and active for my flock as when quite well.
"I would guard any young person brought up in a mission-school, and with some view of being engaged in missionary labour, from looking forward to a life of divestment of outward labour, or as despising secular occupations as below them. That feeling has, I fear, been like a canker-worm in the minds of many, and especially in such as bave lived for years in a preparatory seminary, employed almost exclusively in learning, and with little or no active labour. Spiritual pride has got the ascendency, and mistaken notions as to the
claims of Christianity on the heart and life; its controlling influence on the feelings, thoughts, words, and actions, have become sorrowfully apparent. The teaching of others has been held the great business of a Christian's life, too much losing sight of the perpetual obligation to dwell under the influence of the Redeemer's power and spirit, and to have the whole mind and conduct embued with that all-subduing and all-controlling power.
“ Secular occupations are generally salutary; and it would be advantageous to the mental health of the studious, if they had some intermixture of manual employ. How many females are there now growing up in the middle and higher ranks of society, languid and diseased from mere want of exercise! And what melancholy examples have I recently seen of young men brought up without business, or any serious occupation for their time, showing forth the pernicious fruits of pride, with fulness of bread and abundance of idleness !
“With regard to foreign missions, I believe it would be better for the cause of Christianity, if not any were appointed as preachers without some active employment as school-teachers, translators, &c. It is not difficult to conceive how possible it is for the missionary concern to be a kind of resting-place for persons who prefer study occasionally, and leisure occasionally, to any settled or laborious means of obtaining a livelihood, and who may seek this office, as many have sought the priest's office, not from the requirings of the Holy Spirit, but for outward bread. It may be said, are not the dangers and difficulties of a missionary life too many and too well known to allow of such a choice
from such motives ? No; there is danger to the youthful mind; and a great proportion of missionaries commence their engagements when quite young. To such minds there is something very inviting in the idea of crossing seas, travelling to a great distance, seeing new countries and new people, and being at the same time treated by friends, under whose care they are preparing for the engagement, with a tenderness and sympathy such as the nature of their prospects will naturally induce. It is true, indeed, there are often great sacrifices of domestic feeling to be encountered in parting from family and friends; yet, when the missionary is fixed in his station as a clergyman, the leisure and the freedom which bis circumstances frequently permit, and the higher manner of supporting himself than his earlier days afforded, allow an enemy unawares to steal in upon him, and instead of pouring out his soul for the surrounding transgressors, he falls into the self-complaisant state of the Pharisee, ' I thank Thee that I am not as other men are, not even as these hea. then and idolaters; and thus indulges feelings of pride concerning himself, too much verging on contempt towards those from whom in his outward situation he is so far exalted and removed.
“Secular labour and school-teaching has a tendency to keep the mind in an attentive and subjugated state, by keeping people reminded of their own obligations, and of work they must fulfil. Whilst the further a person is removed from the necessity of business, except that of giving instruction occasionally, which is not to be considered as business, the more liable I apprehend he must be to the attack of the enemy inciting to pride,
the bane of all real vital religion. And thus aware on the one hand of dangers by religious men being too much engaged in worldly business, I do yet decidedly believe it would be better for Christianity at large, were all religious teachers on the plan of the lowly agents of the Christian Instruction Society, as many worthy Christians in the Wesleyan Society, and as ministers in the Society of Friends, and give their religious instruction in public as well as in private, without money and without price, thus saying in effect, We seek not yours but you.'
“9th mo. 26th. Lately I have suffered much from weakness, but to-day have again been able to pay a little attention to the children, yet I am much spent with a little effort, and feel great exhaustion. I desire to learn from this suspension to feel more than ever how needful it is in all our projects and purposes to remember that it is, If the Lord will, we shall live and do this or that.'
“ 28th. I ought with thankfulness of heart to say, that I do not know that I have ever been since my arrival at Charlottee without bread or biscuit in the house, and have mostly had both. I have not, that I recollect, been one day without meat, rice or coffee, sugar or butter; so that though some consider a missionary life as mostly one of great deprivation, let not these deprivations be overestimated. They are, indeed, great as to religious privileges, yet with regard to food we can generally provide it in a colony like this. Our lodging is not so gloomy as some may suppose, but not so inviting to repose as the quiet sleeping-rooms at home. My own room is a place of reception; in it are school-lessons, bundles of work, various little
stores in boxes, as peas, flour, soap, candles, arrowroot, biscuits, &c.; and though the room is a good size, it is by such means rather crowded, and it needs daily care to keep it in order. My roomdoors, which open into the piazza, may several of them be easily opened on the outside, and I do not feel otherwise at all secure; but my hope is in Him whose care is over all. We have had several small depredations, which are of little account, except to the delinquent, who is hurt by his sin. O, that from this hour my heart may be kept from evil! The liability to impatient feeling with those around appears to me a far more fearful circumstance in our situation than any outward deprivation; but our Lord can give victory even here.
“I do not seem able to obtain the rest and seclusion which a debilitated state of health requires. I am become incapable of stooping, or almost of standing without a sensation like that of being about to fall. So long as I can sit up, or even give directions and make payments from my bed, the concerns of the family must rest upon me; and when this forenoon I was unexpectedly relieved by a reviving sleep on the sofa, I was quickly awakened by one of my young people coming to ask me about dinner, when by a little thought she would have seen I wanted sleep, and knows too that the matron could tell her all that was wanted.
“30th. I begin to fear that little more can be done by me in Africa. I can read a little, and whilst writing I rest my head on one hand and write with the other. But time passes swiftly, and the close of the rainy season may find me not much advanced in my work. Some variations in