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in, by neglect or delay, I have given him pain or cause of complaint, dwell on my mind at times in such a way that I am quite ready to sink into melancholy; but when I remember how contrary that would be to my husband's wish, and how much against the will of God, how much it would be likely to hurt my soul, and prevent my having any power to promote the happiness of those around me, I feel it my duty to look to God for deliverance; and, though I cannot recall the past, endeavour to seek refuge from myself, and a conformity to the Divine will in all my future ways. That he was fully prepared to meet death cannot be doubted; and I remember with thankfulness the calm assurance with which he expressed his willingness to die, at a time when there was every reason to believe he would have continued with us. I mean on the night before his death, when he appeared in a great measure free from every complaint.

"Well, my dear friend, though the Scriptures speak truth of this world as a wilderness,—a vale of tears, everything conspires to assure me that the Lord has only placed us here to prepare us for a better country. I can now, through the grace of God, look forward to 'immortality and eternal life;' and in this prospect my soul rises above its present sufferings, and I can feelingly say, 'I bless the day that I was born:' though sorrow should mark my path through every stage in this short scene of things, what is there to complain of? If Jesus receive our souls at last, we may be borne through all without sinking,-without for a moment ceasing to remember that God ruleth over all and cares for us, even more than we care for ourselves.

As we followed the body of my husband to the grave, while they sang,

"Our brother the haven has gained,
Outflying the tempest and wind!' &c.

you know not how the clouds dispersed from my mind. The Lord gave me at that moment such a view of the brightness of another world, and of the glorious change my husband now experienced, that I found power at that moment to lose my sorrows in his joy. Truly the Lord is our salvation!

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My mind enjoys much consolation and relief when I am persuaded I am doing the will of God; though often suffering from a sense of want in this respect. I would live with death in my view, and I believe in this prospect my soul may gather strength daily. I find, through mercy, a constant power to say, 'Good is the will of the Lord! I never had cause to doubt of this truth; and I trust, through all the changing scenes of life, I shall still find Jesus to be the anchor of my soul!"

When my beloved father was on his dying bed, he requested that a small patrimony which had belonged to my first mother should be laid aside for me. This desire was scrupulously observed, and never did my endeared mother take any part, except the interest, although she thereby straitened herself. Yet neither that, nor the claims of her own little girl, ever restrained her from giving me the best instructions in her power, nor prevented her from fulfilling, in every point of view, the duties of the most tender and judicious of parents.

In the course of April the subject of this Memoir became the mother of a lovely little girl;

and this circumstance occasioned a diversion of thought, which at once tended to relieve her loneliness, and soothe her sorrows. Soon after her recovery, she took charge of the female part of a day-school which was opened among the Methodists. It is interesting to see some of her thoughts at this period, when Sunday-schools were very unusual, and the system of mutual instruction scarcely known.

In a letter to a friend, she remarks: "The shocking neglect, the wretched bigotry that generally prevails in the education of children, have struck my mind for many years, even before I had ceased to be a child myself. It appears from the manner in which parents bring up their children that principles of either natural or revealed religion are nearly out of the question, and habits unsanctioned by either reason or religion are suffered to usurp their place. Supposing we can only do little to stem the torrent of corruption that flows from the general neglect of education, we are not to sit down because we cannot do everything God does not despise the day of small things.' Where we cannot do all we would, it is our duty to do all we can. But who fulfils this duty? My conscience answers, Not I. Were but a few of us to set about doing all we can for the general good, we know not how the Lord might bless our efforts. The effects produced by Sundayschools, when properly managed, have been by no means inconsiderable. Almost the whole business depends on the teachers being qualified for their undertaking. An institution of this kind ought to be conducted by persons of Christian experience, and who are accustomed to think and judge for

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themselves, otherwise they will not be capable of teaching children to use their reason; and what is all the knowledge gained by rote, unless we are taught how to exercise our understanding? If there be any truth in these observations, it is indeed of importance to the present and eternal interests of children that they be put under the care of reasonable and religious persons. What difficulties are too great to encounter for the attainment of such an object,—such a blessing to society, and to the church? I say, to society; for, if we consider the future influence well-educated children may have on society, we shall be far from concluding that schools are of little importance. Were I persuaded that a few months would end my life, and that I should leave children in a confused world, without a parent to instruct their tender minds, and without a parent's solicitude to direct them in the way to heaven, how would my heart be cheered with the thought that the Methodist church would take up their cause; and not only theirs,-but, inspired with the love their heavenly Father shows to all who want help, that they were following His example, and seeking to be of use to the most helpless, and yet the most neglected part of mankind.

"Mr. G-tells me that if I can only convince the children I love them, and wish to do them all the good I can, I shall establish a confidence in their minds towards me, which will be the best foundation of usefulness to them. The employment of education will not be very productive, in a temporal sense, to any; but let us be content with the necessaries, the common comforts of life, and leave its toys for those who have nothing to do but to play with them' Neither will this em

ployment be considered by the multitude as the most honourable; but those who cherish principles which want food from the world's applause would be improper persons to teach the religion of Jesus. "A lively and fervent wish came into my mind last night, and I pray from the depth of my soul that, if the Lord see it good, it may be accomplished. It is that all descriptions of true Christians who deserve the name of the friends of youth should unite their efforts in the great work of education. I am persuaded that no great things will be accomplished until Christians, although dissenting from each other in some points, unite in this labour of love. How glorious would be such a union!-I do not mean in the eyes of men; for prejudice and bad habits have made the employment of teaching appear almost contemptible. But would it not be a truly acceptable service in the eyes of Him'in whose favour is life!' Yet, desirable as this may be, it appears a very distant object. Religious persons must be more public-spirited, and better-qualified to teach, ere this wish which arose in my mind can be accomplished.

"Perhaps there are no persons more spirituallyminded, or more liberal and active in promoting what they believe to be a good design, than some of the Society of Friends are; let them and some of our friends take the subject into consideration, and unite in an earnest and affectionate appeal to the consciences of Christians in general.

"I think it is not in the power of a child's mind to be engaged the whole of the Sabbath in a religious way with many it is a day of languor and idleness, and with many one of active dissipation. I believe, from what little I have myself seen, and

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