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structed, that the good seed in them should be cherished and cultivated, and that we ought to regard the cultivation of the soil on which it is to grow, as one of the first of our duties—the most interesting of our cares. “4th mo. 3rd. I feel a desire in my heart for our dear young people, and for myself, that we may not be delaying the dedication of the whole heart until there be only exhausted powers to offer. Oh,

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the day! for He is worthy who hath called us to glory and to virtue. “9th mo. 10th. Read the heart-affecting account in Matthew, ix. 35–38. Oh, that the spirit of Him who was moved with compassion toward the multitude, who were as sheep having no shepherd, may deeply possess my heart; for truly the harvest is great, and the labourers—the feeling, faithful labourers, but few. Oh, these present things, how do they absorbs not by their importance, but by their forcing themselves, as it were, on our immediate attention. “10th mo. 4th. Has there been in me a disposition to form heavens of my own, and dwellings of my own, rather than to seek my all from Thee P Heavenly Father, has not Thy Spirit created in me a desire, and Thy love caused a willingness that these heavens, and these forbidden dwellings may be shaken P “I have feared that some friendships which I have been disposed to form, and sanguinely to indulge in, would too much bias, too much absorb my mind, and lead my judgment and affections; and draw aside from that unreserved devotedness to Thee, which, in my most favoured and happiest

moments, my spirit longs for. And, oh, if there be any separation to be made which may be comparable to that of a right hand, or a right eye, enable me, by Thy divine power, willingly to endure it, and even to rejoice in whatever shall tend to turn away my hopes and my desires from all but Thee. “6th mo. 1812. That principle which causes us to desire to recover and restore our erring fellowcreatures, rather than to seek their destruction, is assuredly the principle to which Christianity tends, and to which it will ever lead, where its benign influence is suffered to prevail. “Is it possible that in the nineteenth century, a time when, to every species of known distress, the hearts of mankind are open to feel, and prompt to relieve, is it possible that men should refuse to hear, or hear unheeded, those cries of accumulated misery which will now and then reach them from the abodes of insanity; dwellings which, in some instances, have been too correctly described as tombs of the living ” “9th mo. 19th. It appears to me to be one of my first duties to endeavour to make home a scene of interest and happiness. This, indeed, will be best done by all having their attention well directed; all feeling that love to God and man from whence all virtues flow, and in that loveseeking to avoid all cause of offence, and fulfilling, as means may offer, the duties of the day. “Save me, O Lord, from apostacy from Thee! O thou source of my hope 1 for truly Thy goodness, in visiting and revisiting, has been unbounded ! “lst mo. 22nd, 1813. During this week my de

sire has been to keep a reverent fear of offending, and bringing upon myself the bereavement of good.

“4th mo. 23rd. I remember the prayer of our great Redeemer for his disciples when He was about to leave them : “I pray not that Thou wouldest take them out of the world, but that Thou wouldest keep them from the evil!’ And, oh, I feel myself the need of such a supplication! and for some of my beloved friends, too. “What hast thou to do' (this is often in my remembrance,) ‘what hast thou to do in the way of Egypt, to drink the waters of Sihor P or, what hast thou to do in the way of Assyria, to drink the waters of the river ?' What hast thou to do with the spirit and maxims of this world, who hast been taught the lessons of a better wisdom Ah! forsake not thy allegiance to the King of kings, in any act of thy conduct, in any principle of thy heart! Be ever alive to the feeling, that He is the fountain of living waters, and that, inasmuch as we depart, or go aside from Him, we are only making to ourselves ‘ cisterns, broken cisterns that can hold no water." Oh, then, that the desire of our hearts may be ever awake to the remembrance of Him Guard our hearts, O Thou who art our preserver and Redeemer Guard us from the temptations that encompass us on every side! Prepare us by an entire subjection and acquiescence to Thy will for the fulfilment of all Thy designs concerning us. Thy ways are not our ways, nor Thy thoughts our thoughts. O ! let us not be bounded by ourselves; but our hearts and affections enlarged by an unreserved dedication to Thee, that so we may be favoured to feel that the Lord God Omnipotent reigneth.

“7th mo. (5th day of the week.) Our dear friend D. W- stood up to-day in meeting, with an allusion to this affecting appeal, ‘Were there not ten cleansed ; but where are the nine 2 There are not found that returned to give glory to God save this stranger!" Oh, that the enquiry may be brought home, ‘Who among us that have been the favoured subjects of renovating power, have not yet returned to give glory to God, not resigned themselves still to His purifying influence; but gone aside to the waters of Egypt, the rivers of Assyria, instead of still repairing to Him who is the Fountain of life.

“8th mo. 15th. “Set thine house in order ' I believe it will be well for me, as soon as may be, to put my outward affairs in such a train that I may both know readily how I stand to all debtors and creditors, and that others might know also without difficulty, if I were suddenly removed; yet not that I have any apprehension of this being likely.

“Whether it be permitted to us to enjoy, or whether it be ours to suffer a deprivation of that grateful feeling in meeting, in which our soul delights, yet if our growth in the truth be promoted, all will be well: only may the bias of our hearts, in and under all, be to the ‘Father which is in heaven.'

“To-day we have had two silent-meetings. In the last my mind was impressed, during a part of the time, with the remembrance of the pious and devout state of mind often evinced by the Psalmist, and of the interesting and important supplication uttered in these few words, “Teach me Thy statutes'

“Our Redeemer, infinitely powerful, can make all things work together for good to those whose love and fear is to Him to whom all hearts are open, and all desires are known. O, that the thoughts of our hearts might be so cleansed by the inspiration of His pure and infinite Spirit, that we might be taught ‘perfectly to love Him, and worthily to magnify His holy name ! “8th mo. 31st, 1813. It is not mere outward prosession, it is not a mere coincidence in the theories of reason, that can truly unite us to one another, or enable us to be instrumental in leading to happiness, which is alone to be found in Thee. Our true union with one another must be a union in that divine life that proceeds from Thee, and in attracting us to thyself, as the source and centre of all goodness, we are drawn nearer and nearer to each other in living, precious union' But, while I write, and name the feeling which now is dwelling with me, my spirit fears its own weaknesses, by which it has too often been betrayed. Oh, that from day to day I might still have power feelingly to say, in the remembrance of Thee, ‘My heart is fixed '' ‘I wish 1 could retrace the feelings that were brought over my mind at the York Midsummer Quaterly-meeting; but my hope is that their effect, felt in that meeting, will never be lost. My heart was then called to an entire dedication to Thee, even beyond what I had before conceived, or understood. And, oh, the integrity, the uprightness, the singleness of heart which Thou requirest, and justly claimest from us; we must not, even in thought, say, Thus far will I follow Thee, and no further. Our obedience, our devotedness must F

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