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true repentance. - But, Sir, I must add, that I had not been long in the house, not long restored, (I may say to myself) before, as duty obliged, I wrote in the humblest terms to inform my parents, and to implore their forgiveness. A letter was immediately returned from my mother, but such a letter as almost broke my heart. In it The acquaints me, that my father had been dead near a twelvemonth; and that she herself then lay upon a fick-bed, from whence she had scarce any hopes of being raised. That my behaviour had brought her near to the grave, and that the daily reflection on my shame and misery had well nigh broke her heart. But the information of my repentance had partly revived her; and that as she before suspected I was amongst the inost abandoned, so now the conținuance of my good behaviour could alone prolong her life. I need not tell you, Sir, that I replied with all affection to this. Some other letters passed; and in about two months time, my dear, dear mother, came to the MagdalenHouse to visit me! · But how can I describe that meeting! Shame and sorrow rendered me a statue : maternal affection, mingled grief and joy, stopped all her power of utterance! She clang round my neck, I tenderly embraced her, and fell upon my knees imploring forgiveness! The burst into tears, and all she could say was, “ Oh my child, my child !
my unhappy child ! -- oh my dear Maria -my child, my child !”
Thus, Sir, was I reconciled to the tenderest of mothers : and the account she heard of my behaviour had such an influence upon her health, that she grew every day better and better. But, unable to live without me, as my return, (after having given me over for loft,) I suppose, rendered me dearer to her;-- she requested the gen“tlemen, to permit me to come to her; and they,
ever generous, and ever humane, kindly permit'ted me to do fo, after I had been near eleven months in the house ; which I left with regret, as the place of my restoration and recovery to all things desirable : and I now live with my mother, studious only to make her happy, and to wipe off all paft stains, as much as I may, by the most exact discharge of every duty. While my constant endeavour is and shall be to instill into my poor unhappy. child's mind, such principles of religion and virtue, as I am well satisfied, would have preserved me from the distress into which I fell, had I been so happy as to have known them before that fall.
I am, Sir,
Your very respectful servant,
Quid purè tranquillet.
To the V181 TOR. S I R, ALTHOUGH many and various are the H perfuits of Mankind after happiness, yet the greatest felicity is a conftant sense of the Divine Favour. The pleafures which arise to the mind from a preheminence of birth, ftation, and fortune, are of a foreign and extrinfic nature. Hence we daily fee multitudes poffessed of these benefits, who are utter ftrangers to solid and permanent fatisfactions. But the good man, however deftitute of those incidental advantages, hath neverthelefs an inexhaustible fource of comfort within himfelf. When he quits the croud, and defcends into his breast, he is fure of meeting with the best of company there, God, and his own heart. While the consciousness of his integrity, and the approbation of his maker, furnish him with a perpetual feaft.
Here, methinks, we cannot but pause a while to reflect with gratitude upon the beneficence of our Creator, who hath thus, as it were, anni
hilated all invidious distinctions among mankind; and either hath placed the descendants of Adam upon a level in point of happiness, or lodged the means thereof within the reach of every man. It is not in the power of every individual to be rich and great in the world; but it is much in the power of every individual to attain an happiness infinitely fuperior to the joys, which wealth and grandeur can bestow. Wherefore let not the poor cottager complain, that all his labour is expended upon procuring to himnself nothing more than the mere necessaries of life. Such fender acquisitions are truly value able and weighty, upon condition that he improves his existence to thofe purpofes, for which it was gracioully given to him. If the indigent part of the species did bút carefully consider, that to be good is to be happy, and that virtue and religion are accommodated to every situation and capacity, they would see abundant cause for thankfulness, even amid those scenes of servitude and toil, which now perhaps occasion envy, discontent, and murmur.
That frequent intercourses with the Supreme Being constitute the utmoft happiness of man, is a propofition, which stands in no need of proof from philosophical enquiries, refined argumentations, and laboured inferençės. A very restricted understanding can comprehend this important truth. An arrant peasant, without
previous information, is fully aware of the vast emoluments, which accrue from an intimacy with an earthly monarch. What then must be those exalted privileges, which redound from the favour and friendship of the Almighty Sovereign of the universe !
But I shall close this subject with the opinion of the Royal Psalmist upon it; who discovers the high sense he entertained of the Divine Prefence, by that bitterness, with which he bewails the interruption of it.
Offended Majesty ! how long
Wilt Thou conceal thy face !
The succours of thy grace.
And black despondence reigns,
And triumphs o'er my pains. Let thy returning spirit, Lord,
Dispel the shades of night; Smile on my poor deserted soul,
My God, thy smiles are light. While scoffers at thy facred word
Deride the pangs I feel,