he will help through in this last conflict; for his word is ftill the fame. I'll never, never leave, nor forfake you; he's able to fave to the uttermoft. He answered I know that.

A little after, the other faid, we have brother fuch a view of his love and glory that fhall be reveal'd, that shall excite to praife and thanksgiving, that'll be the eternal fong of the redeemed. You're beginning that fong now. He anfwered, ay, ay, blessed be his name.

Then he prayed, and said, pity me, and let me de. part in peace; for my eyes have seen thy falvati

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When a minifter faid, do you defire one of us to pray? He answered, yea, yea, pray that I may win comfortably over. One faid, he has need of fome refreshment. He answered, I have meat to eat. Pray, faid he, that, like a good foldier, I may strike the last ftroke.

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After that, he faid, come Lord Jefus; I have waited for thy falvation.I wait for thy falvation, as the watch-men watcheth for the morning.'I'm weary with delays.I faint for thy falvation.

Why are his chariot wheels fo long a coming?—←← He's trying my patience,He's trying my patience. O what means he to ftay fo long? I'm like to faint with delays.

Then having reviv'd a little he faid, draw the curtains about me, and let me fee what he has a mind to do with me. This done, after a while's filence, he faid, whence is this to me? There's a ftrange change within this half hour. Ah, faid he, I'm like to be Shipwrecked to health again; I'm fear'd for it, and tremble at this, firs. O what sort of providence is this?

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Part IV. this? I was in hopes to have been at the end of my journey; and now I'm detain'd with a crofs wind. I defire to be patient under his hand; but he muft. open my heart to glorifie him. Then he faid, pray for me; pray for me, that none that fear him may be afham'd on my account.

After that he said, 'I have loved the habitation of thy house, and the place where thy honour dwells. Thou that knows all things, knows I love thee, Lord I may not want thee.'

Then to the minifters he faid, brethren, go and pray to the Lord for me. One faid brother, I'm not difappointed in that reviving you got. The Lord, calls to fubmiffion to his will; he does all things well; he has giving you wonderful affiftance hither. to. He answered, I find corruption vigorous and ftrong, fo that I have no reason to quit my post, no not for half an hour.

Thereafter he faid, O that I could blefs the Lord, fuch a wonder of mercy as I've been made. When he was breathing forth a paffionate longing after his diffolution, one faid to him, you have reafon to account God's kindness to you very furprizing fince now these three days paft you have had fo much of fenfible comfort without interuption, and fame of the greatest men in the church of Scotland have been fore and long tofs'd with defertion, and have not had at death the half of your confolation, have not got the half of these manifestations that you have had. He answered his loving kindness is indeed marvellous to me: What am I, O what am I, that he has brought me hitherto! What I have is not a flafhy and very fenfible joy; yet I blefs, I blefs his name I am much compos'd, and have folid clear fcripture manifeftations of God, and the things of God.

To the apothecary he faid, I thought to have been away, and I'm come back again: I'm glad to be gone, not that I'm wearied: He has not allow'd a

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fretting thought to vex me. O I'm a monument> a monument of the power of God. My trouble is great, but I'm helped to bear it: And in fo far I'm a martyr as well as a witness. My great defire has been these many years, to fuffer for the truth of our religion; and now God has given me the greatest honour, to be a living witness to it, and a monument of it; that' we have not followed cunningly devised fables.' I'll be at heaven fhortly; I'll come there by the word of my teftimony, and the blood of the lamb: All is of grace: He has chofen me,,called me juftified me, and fanctified me by his grace: He gives grace and glory, thefe are brave gifts,

Then he faid to the minifters, after many apologies &c. That he as a dying man begged them to represent to the enfuing fynod, that they would keep up brotherly love, the unity of the fpirit in the bond of peace, and with the outmost care avoid divifive courses, whatever temptations they might be under to thefe. I'm concern'd, said he, as long as I'm in time for the church; I even pity you; O let all of us bide by him. O that the miniftry of Scotland may be kept from deftroying the kirk of Scotland. O that could obtain it of them with tears of blood to be concern'd for the church! Shall we be drawn away from the precious gofpel, and from Chrift?

To one of the ftudents he faid, if I had you lads all about me now, I would give you a leffon of divinity: However, this will be a standing witness of the reality, folidity, power and efficacy of these truths I taught you for by the power of that grace reveal'd in thefe truths, here I ly pain'd without pain without ftrength, and yet strong. I think it would not be a loft feffion this, tho' you were all here.

To a citizen he said, fir, I'm a monument of the great goodness of God: There are but a few names in this place that fet their faces heaven-ward; be encourag'd to go on. The Lord bless you and your

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family; you have been a kind neighbour. Then he faid, they that are planted in the house of the Lord, fhall flourish in the courts of our God.' I am planted in the house of God, here's an evidence of it, I'm but young, and yet the child is going to die an hundred years old. In winter laft I thought I was going to be caft as a withered ftick over the dyke ; and now the dead stock that was cut, has budded again and grown a tall cedar in Lebanon,

After a paufe, he said my body complains of pain, but I complain of none, I was never more myself all my life, than in this fickness: I was never more indebted to grace. Ah I mistook myself, O curfed self. I would been ov'r easily away without all this fcouring, and yet I'm fcouring away to heaven: I thought to win away

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with this rubbish; but my God fees meet to purge me of all my drofs; he's keeping me, and he'll have me as gold purified seven times ere I go hence; and I'll be bravely purg'd and get fair clean garments wafhen, and made white in the blood of the lamb; and the enemy that accus'd Joshua the high priest, dare not accufe me for filthy garments; Yet not unto us, not unto us; O there's a beauty there! would you have a mark of a true christian? here it is, to ftrike at the bearing down of felf in all its most fubtile actings. I'm full of fores, faid he, but all my bones fhall praise him.

Then he prefs'd the minifters to discourse to him and faid, I defire to hear the word read, the word preached. Many times when I thought on the worthies that liv'd in the days of old, I faid, I was as one born out of due time; but now I think I'm born in due time, for I'll fee Jefus, O fweet Jefus that delivers from the wrath to come! I'll fee Elijah and Mojes, the great old teftament prophets; I'll fee the two great mediators, the type and the antitype: The three difciples got a fweet and glorious fight of Chrift

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in his transfiguration; this was indeed an edifying and confirming fight allowed to the difciples for ftrengthning their faith against the objections of the unbelieving Jews, and the fhaking trials they were Shortly to meet with. Was he defpifed as a mean and meer man, and his godhead difown'd? Lo! here he appears in divine majefty and glory. Did they fay that he was against the law? Lo! here Mofes, by whom the law was giving, paying refpect unto him. Did they say that he was not the promised Meffias foretold by the prophets? Lo ! here Elijah, the greateft zealot among the old teftament prophets, owning and honouring him. Was he reproached as a deceiver of the people? Lo! the voice from heaven faith, This is my beloved fon in whom I am well pleafed, hear ye him,' Yet this fight was of fhort continuance, and terrible while it lafted. But in heaven we shall have a more glorious and abiding fight, we fhall behold' his glory, we shall be made like unto him, for we shall fee him as he is: Lo! this is our God, and we have waited for him! When his people are in trouble, the wicked fay, where's your God; but wait the iffue till their deliverance come, and then they can fay, lo! This is our God. O faid he, I'm full of matter I know not where to begin or end: The fpirit of the Lord has been mighty with me; Ọ the book of God is an unco' thing! 'Tis written within and without! I never ftudied it to the half of what I fhould; but God has given me much of it together. Never was I more uneafie in my life, and yet I was never more eafy: All my bones are like to break, they stick through my fkin, a hand is a burden to me, my mouth's a burden, &c. and yet all eafy: Not unto us, not unto us,'-O there's a beauty there.

Then to his wife he faid, O my sweet bird, are you there? I'm no more thine; I'm the Lord's. I

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