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April 30th.-Since I last wrote, I have been made conversant with solemn things. Not more than a month ago, I daily expected the messenger death. But, at that awful time, when I was as between two worlds, I enjoyed complete rest. I had no fear: all was assurance and peace. O the high value of a consciously-enjoyed interest in Christ! Through grace, the strongest ties to earth were broken. But still I live: O let me live to thee!' I am rendered willing to sojourn in this house of clay a little longer, only by this consideration, For me to live is Christ.' If I can be of any service, then I say, 'It is enough. Let me linger out a few more months or years in pain. I rest in thy will.' The will of God has become increasingly sweet to me: my own is much subdued. This has been achieved by lengthened affliction. O that I could record, as I have experienced, the lovingkindness of God! My firm anchorage is in the atoning Sacrifice, and thus I experience a quiet resting in the Saviour."

This last extract is the closing entry in Mrs. Joll's journal: two months after its date she entered into rest.

In May she went into Nottinghamshire, hoping that a short residence with her mother in Newark would be beneficial; but, though there appeared occasionally some little ground for hope, this was only temporary. On the 5th of June, riding out with her brotherin-law, she looked with interest on the fields then smiling with beauty, and said, "They call this a waste, howling wilderness. It is beautiful, even though it is in ruins." On the same day she addressed to me, I believe, the last letter she wrote. She says, "I begin to look wistfully to my dear home. The kindness of my friends almost oppresses me they watch every look, and regard my words as those of one they must see no more. I love to pray with them, but I have scarcely sufficient strength. Next door to C- B- is a lady in a consumption. She has sent for me more than once. I went on Saturday, and freely conversed with her. I had much liberty in prayer. desired I would come again." The interview was deeply interesting. Each was drawing near the eternal world. One of them, herself saved by grace, was endeavouring to lead the other to the sinner's Friend. Nor was the effort fruitless. The lady obtained mercy, and died in the peace of the Gospel.

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June 14th.-Her brothers, with their wives, calling to see her, she addressed them with great affection, assuring them, that she felt the blessedness of religion; and that while she would neither deceive herself nor others, she longed that they should enjoy what she then possessed. I engaged in prayer. As her relations departed, she very earnestly commended them to God. Her own work was nearly

done.

On the 20th, when on one occasion I approached her bed-side, she said, "What a burst of glory! His holiness, all his attributes, all are glorious; his holiness chief of all. And of this he has made me a partaker through Christ." At another time, on being informed that death was not far distant, she said, "Do you think so?" and when an affirmative answer was given, she exclaimed, "Welcome, welcome!" Her last Sabbath on earth she said had been a blessed day to her: she had been meditating on her Saviour from the manger to the cross,

and her very countenance was illustrative of the joy of her spirit. Being aware that she was not far from the eternal world, she said, "The nearer I approach heaven, the more delightful it appears." During the last day of her life she was unable to converse much; but enough had already been said to satisfy her afflicted friends. She exchanged mortality for life, June 30th, 1843, in the thirty-sixth year of her age.

The chief excellencies in Mrs. Joll's character were, diligent attention to the claims of her own family, and to the more private duties of religion, combined with zeal for the prosperity of the cause of God. After having secured no small share of affection from those who knew her in every Circuit where she had resided, she terminated her short, but useful, career in the house of her surviving parent. Her remains were interred in her native village, by the side of those of her father.

MEMOIR OF MRS. CHAPPELOW,

OF LONDON:

BY THE REV. JOSEPH FOWLER.

MRS. CHAPPELow, whose maiden name was Wigzell, was born in London, in the year 1790. Her parents were regular attendants at St. John's chapel, Bedford-row, which at that time, and for several years subsequently, was favoured with the ministry of the Rev. Mr. Cecil; but, notwithstanding the privileges connected with so faithful and evangelical an instructer, it does not appear that the mind of Miss Wigzell was seriously, if at all, impressed with divine truth. Her natural disposition being what is termed amiable and obliging, she was greatly beloved by the circle of her friends, but remained an entire stranger to a work of grace on the heart, or to any conviction that such a change was necessary, until she had completed her twentieth year. About that period, under a funeral sermon preached by the Rev. Daniel Wilson, now Bishop of Calcutta, on the death of the venerable Pastor of St. John's, she was deeply convinced of sin. While the Minister, on that solemn and mournful occasion, was reminding his audience of the advantages which they had so long enjoyed, and of the responsibilities which they had incurred, the word came with power to her heart; and from that hour she earnestly desired, and sought, the salvation of her soul. The change which was produced in her general demeanour attracted attention; and a friend, desirous of promoting her spiritual good, lent her a treatise on the subject of election: she read it carefully, but did not derive the benefit from the perusal which the lender had designed and expected; on the contrary, her mind became exceedingly perplexed and discouraged she made further inquiry, and Mr. Wesley's "Predestination calmly Considered," being opportunely placed in her hands, was the instrument of relieving her from all perplexity on the subject. In the year 1813 she visited a family in Sevenoaks, and, as was her practice in London, attended the services of the established Church; but not finding the doctrine which she was accustomed to hear from the Pastor of St. John's, she became dissatisfied; her mind was too much enlightened to accept any ministry in which "Christ crucified" was not clearly and prominently set forth; and, after some struggle with former habits and educational prejudices, she determined that, at

all events, she would hear the Gospel; and therefore, for the first time in her life, she entered a Wesleyan chapel. The simplicity and fervour which characterized the worship caused a powerful and favourable impression; and the sermon, preached by the Rev. Jonathan Williams, seemed exactly suited to her circumstances. Her deep attention and devotional feeling were observed by a person present, who, at the close of the service, spoke to her on the subject of religion : this well-timed zeal, this most affectionate regard for the spiritual welfare of the stranger, as evidenced in the seasonable introduction of the topic, was productive of great good to her. This Christian and courteous attention was precisely what she needed. The same pious female subsequently accompanied her to a class-meeting; and this religious service, also, was admirably calculated to afford her spiritual assistance, and she derived much instruction and profit from it. On her return to London, she felt a strong desire to attend for worship at the Wesleyan chapel in Great Queen-street; but, from regard to the prejudices of her friends, she restricted her attendance to the week-evenings; continuing, as before, to accompany the family to their usual place on the Sabbath. It was her wish and endeavour to avoid giving any offence; and in order to this she willingly relinquished her preferences in all matters where the claims of conscience were not involved; but she soon found that her motives were not appreciated, nor her conduct approved; and that all her efforts to win the approbation, or at least the acquiescence, of her relations, were ineffectual: her heart, however, was fixed; and though subjected to many annoyances for following what she believed to be the will of God, she patiently and resolutely persevered in her course. In a letter to Miss Hilder, the friend by whom she had been so kindly noticed, and so wisely counselled and directed, she speaks of the opposition which now assailed her, of the difficulties with which she had to contend in her Christian progress, and of the sorrow she experienced at the loss of the advantages which she had enjoyed at Sevenoaks. "I seem here,” she remarks, "to be alone; there is no one who can enter into my feelings; and yet I am not alone, because the Lord says he will never leave nor forsake his people." Private prayer was an exercise in which she diligently and devoutly engaged; and perhaps the more so, on account of the disappointments she sometimes met in relation to more public ordinances. It was about this period, and during the observance of her closet exercises, that God was graciously pleased to manifest his pardoning love to her soul, and to give her what she had long desired and supplicated, the testimony of the divine Spirit to the fact of her adoption into the family of God. The attainment of this blessing produced a firmness and courage in the prosecution of what she believed to be her duty, which no discouragement or resistance could abate. She felt that the claims of her conscience, and of her God, were superior to all others; and though her path was rendered somewhat rugged by the mistaken views which governed the other members of her family in their conduct towards her; yet she was enabled to show that the principles of grace had deep hold of her heart, and that neither threatening nor persuasion could alter her purpose to maintain the profession and practice of godliness. She experienced the joy of God's salvation, and was determined to cleave to her Saviour, and to his people. In a communication to her correspondent in Kent, she

observes, "I shall ever remember my visit to Sevenoaks as the means of my becoming acquainted with Methodism. I feel that God has pardoned me for the sake of Jesus Christ. O what a blessing it is to be happy in God, and to enjoy the heaven of love in our own hearts !” After some allusion to the difficulties which obstructed her course, she adds, “But I have power to overcome all." From this time she "walked in the light of the Lord," and was most exemplary in her outward deportment. She cheerfully engaged in works of mercy, and became a Collector for the Bible Society, a Visiter in the Strangers' Friend Society, and a Teacher in the Sunday-school. In accepting these offices, her only motive was to do good, and to give a practical expression of her love to the Saviour; and under the influence of this deep and hallowed feeling, there were a stability and consistency in fulfilling her Christian course which showed that her supreme, her only, object was to do all to the glory of God.

In the year 1817 she entered into the marriage-state with Mr. Chappelow. This important step was not taken inconsiderately: she sought Divine direction, she acknowledged God. Mr. Chappelow was a member of the same church, and a partaker of like precious faith with herself; in their views and desires on all spiritual matters they were fully agreed; and the union was eminently a happy one. Some time after the event, she wrote to her early and valued friend, Miss Hilder, and expressed her gratitude for the religious prosperity which she enjoyed : she had recently read the Life of Mr. Fletcher, and the perusal had been very beneficial to her; she spoke with much respect and affection of Mrs. Butterworth her Class-Leader, and of the profit she derived from her prayers and instructions: indeed it was manifest, to all who had the privilege of her acquaintance, that her piety sustained no diminution from her altered position. Throughout the additional cares and duties which her new situation had imposed, she maintained a close and even walk with God; and when to these were added the responsibilities of a mother, she sought and found the help she needed; so that the weighty obligations of the parent were neither forgotten nor neglected. Her anxiety for the spiritual interests of her children will ever be gratefully remembered by them: her instructions and example perfectly harmonized, and her “labour" has not been "in vain in the Lord." Alluding to her numerous family, she afterwards remarked, "I have now to watch for their souls, as one that must give account: three of the eldest, I am happy to say, meet in class; and two of them have found peace with God. I feel this to be a cause of great thankfulness. May they be kept unto life eternal!" In her correspondence with them when absent, she never failed to inculcate the necessity of a supreme and constant attention to the claims of religion. Several letters are now before me, which were written to one of her sons when at school; and they all evince her anxious concern for his eternal welfare, and exhibit a combination of wisdom and zeal highly creditable to her understanding and heart.

Her deep and uniform piety, connected with a sound and enlightened judgment, and a rich acquaintance with the holy Scriptures, marked her as a suitable person to be intrusted with the care of a class; and for many years she discharged the duties pertaining to the office of ClassLeader in a manner at once faithful and edifying. Though the cares of a numerous family demanded a large portion of her time, and no

mother was more observant of domestic duties than herself, yet she readily consented to take part in various institutions whose object was to dispense relief to the necessitous and afflicted; and the services implied in such engagement were most conscientiously and cheerfully rendered her regular and punctual attendance on these occasions was, indeed, most exemplary; she felt that by consenting to be placed on any Committee of charity, she had contracted a debt of service; and most willingly and faithfully did she contribute her share of the time and toil which the fulfilment of its duties required. Among many excellencies which adorned her character, none were more conspicuous than her tender compassion for the poor, and her assiduous and unwearied efforts to lessen their sufferings: the following very just and discriminating observations on her sympathy and generosity have been given me by one of her most intimate and intelligent friends:-"Surely, on Mrs. Chappelow rested the blessedness of those who consider the poor: what she gave to relieve their necessities, was but a small portion of her kind attention to them: she was accustomed to visit them in their abodes, to counsel and advise them in difficulties, to assist them by her influence, and to take thought and pains for them in every possible way. I have often wondered how it is that persons who are noted occasionally for their public liberality, and whose names are frequently to be seen in subscription-lists, will yet drive hard bargains in petty dealings with others, and grind the face of the poor, by giving a scanty and inadequate remuneration for their services: the conduct of Mrs. Chappelow was the reverse of this; she considered the poor."

During the last few years of her life, her health was much impaired, and this prevented that orderly attendance on the services of the sanctuary for which she had been long and deservedly distinguished; for it was her habit always to attend the house of prayer at the hour of prayer. In addition to physical weakness, she was called to pass through severe trials, arising from an untoward event, connected with a commercial speculation in which Mr. Chappelow had been advised to engage, and which advice, unhappily, he followed: the consequences were painful and protracted; but her patience and submission under the harassing and distressing circumstance, exemplified the power of divine grace; her sorrow was deep, but no murmuring word escaped her lips. A kind and sympathizing friend informs me, that on one of her visits to Mrs. Chappelow, she found her under the pressure of such accumulated trouble, that she felt rather inclined to sit down and weep in silence, than attempt to offer her any consolation; "but," observes her visiter, "I soon found that, according to the sure word of promise, the light of salvation was poured far within the valley of affliction: she addressed me in language that proved how fully her whole soul acquiesced in the dispensation, and justified the dealings of God towards her; saying repeatedly, I do not wish my friends to pray for the removal of these troubles, but that the great end, for which they are permitted, may be answered in the salvation of all my family: the souls of my husband and children outweigh everything else.'"

A few weeks previous to her departure, it was evident that her frame was sinking under the severe and successive strokes of affliction and sorrow to which she had been subjected; but it was equally evident that her soul was ripening for a blessed immortality. It was not my privilege to have a long acquaintance with her; but the interviews

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