fear, left thou fall from thy glory to his dishonour, thro' thy frailty, and the fubtilty of the devil. 16th. Wednesday morning 4 o'clock in the cabbin of my boat, on Port Royal river, in my way to Georgia, I had fweet communion with my God. In the fulness of my foul, with all the powers of my heart, I did there again devote my self and all that I have unto him for ever and ever to be dif pofed of at his will. I intreated for my wife, and hope I was accepted; I long'd for more fanctification and uprightnefs of heart. hath comforted me in adverfity, and The Lord caufed me to rest upon him with delight, and to breathe forth thankfulness and praises to his holy name. O how shall I render unto him, according to his benefits. 19th. I vifited a dear fervant of the Lord, Mrs. M and had delightful entertainment in converfation; the love of the redeemer poffeffed her heart, and the favour thereof thro' her discourse reviv'd my Spirit. 20th. Lord's day morning, on bed at Capt. H's, at two I woke, and found my God prefent. I breath d forth praises and bleffings unto him. My foul cleaved to him in ftrong ardours, and thirstings, and was jealous of my wandring heart, left I fhou'd caufe him to withdraw his prefence.. O glorious goodnefs! O wonderful intercourfe! My God is perfect love. But alas my weakness! The devil darted an arrow of blafphemy into my mind: It fhock'd me, and laid me low in a sense of my own vilenels. O my vilenefs! my vilenefs! G3 O my deprav'd heart, how foon art thou fallen from thy glory! O wherefore is God merciful to me a finner? O horrible blafphemy! I loath'd the thought. O wicked, fubtle, powerful Spirit! I cry'd unto my God, and he delivered me, and calm'd my foul, and filled it again abundantly with his glory. O love! love! unparallell'd and full of glory! I panted for greater fanctification of heart, to walk worthy of the Lord in all well pleafing, O that I could abstain from every appearance of fin, and be holy as he is holy ! O that I could fhew forth the honour of his name, for his mercy endureth for ever. Heard the Reverend Mr. Z preach from Pfalm cxix. ver. 92d. unless thy law had been my delight, &c. From these words he excellently fhew'd the comforts arifing to the people of God from his word; and that others could have no comfort nor delight therein. That the natural man had no spiritual difcerning nor relish for spiritual things. That the holy fcriptures adminiftred light, ftrength, and comfort to all God's people; and that particularly in his promifes were to be found fupport, comfort and delight for afflicted fouls, &c. His fermon was full, clear, concife, fearching, and comfortable; it was a light of the Lord to my foul, a fire to warm my heart and raise my affections with ardent thanks and bleffings to my God for the glorious difplays of his grace thro' Jefus Chrift. 21. In the morning attempted to cross the Sound, but, the wind being contrary, was oblig'd to to return and come to an anchor again. I read Col. Gardiner's life, and coming to page 53d, where it is mentioned, that from the minute of his awaking in the morning, his heart was rifing to God, the Lord was pleas'd to raise my poor foul to look within the veil, as it were, to view by faith his glory, to magnify his most worthy name, and to render thanks for the attonement made for me by my dear redeemer, I was ftrengthen'd to beg an upright heart, and wisdom to direct and order my ways before him, that he wou'd fanctify my affections, and guide and ftrengthen me by his Spirit to do his will, and keep me from evil, particularly from blafphemous thoughts, which the evil spirit would then have darted in; but God fuftain'd my heart and stopp'd his fuggeftion; I begg'd alfo, if confiftent with his will, to be favour'd with freedom to fpeak of his glory. And now having got near the Lord and touch'd his fceptre, I intreated for my wife, that he would reveal his love to her, and give her refignation to his will, and a contempt of the world; that if poverty, reproach and contempt fhould from it arise to us, we might reft in him, and poffefs our fouls in patience, and walk hand in hand thro' all oppofition to heaven. I intreated for my poor fifter, that God would grant her the joys of his favour before the departs hence and is no more: and for my poor fervants, that in return for their labour and ftrength fpent for me, God would reward them with the light of his Spirit, and a gracious, acceptance thro' my redeemer. I was enabled to give up my self and all that I poffefs wholly to my God, to difpofe of as he fhould please for ever. 22d. Truly God is good to Ifrael, truly he is good to him that is of an upright heart. This day my foul was bowed down before him. He hath withdrawn himself from me and I was troubled, My Spirit was full of heavinefs, and darknefs beclouded my foul; I cry'd unto the Lord and he heard me, and answer'd me I have hid my face ⚫ from thee for a moment, and thou waft troubled, but with everlasting kindness will I draw thee.' This I efteem'd to be the voice of my beloved, and my Spirit rejoiced in God my Saviour. Thou didft breathe upon my heart and it was fill'd with thy love. I breathed forth love and thanksgivings and praises unto thee, O thou God of my falvation. Then did I again in the fulness of my foul devote and give up my felf to thee, as my king to rule, and difpofe of me, as my prophet to teach, and lead me by thy Spirit, and as my prieft to atone and intercede for me; with a full defire to cleave to thee for ever, tho' it fhould be in poverty and nakedness, in fhame and contempt, in reproaches and fufferings, that in all things thou mightst be glorified by me thy creature. O my Lord God! I have fought of thee a perfect heart, and wifdom and ftrength to walk uprightly before thee all my days; and this will I feek after, that I may glorify thee on earth, who haft exalted me me to heaven; for, deareft Lord, thou art my rest, and my heaven, my glory for ever; and thou haft given me to know thy love; thou haft blotted out all my iniquities; thou haft healed my diseases, and crown'd me with loving kindness and tender mercies; thou art my salvation, and I will truft in thee and extol thy name for ever and ever. 23d. Lying wind bound at the river's mouth, I was making fupplication to my God in my cabbin, and he graciously heard and manifefted himself to me. O who so condescending and kind, as the Lord God of heaven and earth? He is my God in covenant. How does he ftoop, O my foul, to exalt thee! Rottenness and filth had cover'd thee; but he hath pardoned thine iniquities, healed thy difeafes, fanctified thy affections, and crown'd thee with loving kindness and tender mercies; and let his praises continually be in thy lips. O magnify and extol his glorious name, for ever and ever. So let my lips and life express, That all who view, may own me thine. Nov. 11th. Longing for the presence of my redeemer, I went out to prayer, and pleaded my privilege as his purchase, and his unchangeable love; and he, ever near the foul that feeks him, graciously manifefted himself to me. The fame morning I read the 6th chapter of St. John's gospel, which much affected me; I pray'd in my family, and |