But there were times when the enemy was so far permitted to take advantage of her bodily weakness as to obstruct her views of Christ, and distress her with a sense of sin; yet she always knew where to resort at these trying moments, and a single verse of Scripture was often sufficient to quench all Satan's fiery darts, and restore her peace. Some notes written to Mrs. W. and Miss H., while here, are well worth inserting.

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MY DEAR MRS. W.,-I think Mr. W. chose the subjects in on purpose for people like myself. "Patience" seems to be the theme all through, connected with "Resignation to the will of God." Thank you for lending me that sweet book, "Spirit of Holiness.' It ends with that prayer: "Sanctify them through thy truth." hope you are better than when I last saw you; if not, I am sure you ought to come and take my place, and lie on dear Mrs. S.'s chair. I feel very well to-day. Accept my best love and thanks for all your kindness. Pray that I may have much patience; for I feel so inclined to get up and work.

I am your grateful

G.

MY DEAR MRS. W.,-As you have not been able to see me since your return, may I take the liberty to write a few lines, to thank you for the nice fish. Mrs. T. could not kill it, till she had put it into the pan. This, I think, is an emblem of my wicked heart, which will never cease showing its life, till the body is ready for the grave.

Give my love to dear Miss A. Wishing you every blessing from the God of peace,

I am yours most gratefully,

G.

MY DEAR MRS. W.,-Some people say, "Absence makes the heart grow fonder;" and truly I may say so too, for you cannot think how I long to see you again. Indeed, I often think of you all, and pray for you. So much obliged for the use of Pierce,-next to my precious Bible, I find most comfort in reading his letters. I feel my Saviour more and more precious every day. My heart is too often filled with unbelief and sin, so that I am tempted to doubt His love; but this is false humility. He loves us for His own sake"Not for your sakes do I this: be ashamed and confounded, O house of Israel!" Dear Mr. W. is so kind. I feel about the same in body as when you left-sometimes better than at others. Give my love to Miss W. and Miss A., not forgetting your own dear self.

Yours affectionately,

G.

MY OWN DEAR MISS H,.-I am indeed sorry to hear of your late illness. I had hoped to have seen you this week, but now I cannot think of such a thing, as it would only increase your illness to move now. When the Lord sees fit you should come back to us you will. May it be ours quietly to submit to his will. The evenings now are too damp and dark to allow of any one coming to me, so Mrs. T. sits by me with her work, while I read my Bible and Treasury. Sometimes I read a few verses to her, and we talk them I long to see you again, but I am very selfish. I will try to remember God orders all things-when we can feel that a dear, kind, wise Father is making all to work for his children's good, then every trial is easy to bear. My dear Mr. W. came to see me to day, and

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said I was like a little bark sailing-often expecting to be in port, and as often driven back again into the midst of the sea. Thank you for the sweet portion you sent me on Monday. It was truly a balm to my wounded spirit. Yes, dear Miss H., he hath done all things well.

Ever your fondly attached child,

G.

The kind considerate attentions of her dear Minister to whom she was most gratefully attached, were unceasing, as were also Mrs. W.'s. There was so striking an improvement in her health, as winter approached, that it was deemed advisable to remove her to the school, where every thing was arranged for her comfort and happiness. The prospect of this greatly delighted her, for though she had enjoyed many happy peaceful hours at the Old Hall, she could not help longing to be again in the midst of friends, to whom she was so fondly attached at the school. The following recollections of this beloved child, kindly supplied by Mrs. W., will add interest to the memoir.

"On Sunday the 13th of August, dear G. was unusually poorly, and very low. I staid at home with her in the morning, and sent Miss T. to church. She told me she was often a very naughty girl when at home, and gave her dear mama a great deal of trouble, and that she believed her parents were very thankful when she left them for school.' Her anxiety for the spiritual good of her family was quite touching. If she received a note from her papa with any religious observation in it, she would read it to me with such delight, and when not at the Hall, would send it up to me to read. She once sent me one with a sweet note of her own, full of gratitude and praise to God, for the state of her dear father's mind upon religion: she felt encouraged to hope that God had heard her prayers in behalf of her dear parent, and given him to see more of the preciousness of that Saviour who was so precious to her own soul. On the 11th of December, fearing she would dread the removal to the school, as I remembered her feelings upon the subject after the midsummer holidays, I went myself to convey her from the Old Hall. I found her ready with her cloak, and not at all depressed as I expected. I took her to the Clergy School in my carriage, and left her there. Being soon after taken ill myself, I never saw her again.

Dear G. rallied some little time after her return to the school, which took place at the beginning of December; but after Christmas, disease gained so rapidly upon her, that she, as well as her friends, were convinced that the frail tabernacle could not stand much longer. Excessive weakness produced a timidity in the prospect of death, which for a time disturbed her peace of mind. On Sunday, January 28th, she was very weak, and unusually depressed. Her first inquiry was, "Do you think I shall be long here?" Miss H. replied, "It is impossible to say, dear; but I think it will be your last spring." G. said, “I may linger a little while yet, for I have so often apparently been brought near death." She then lamented that she did not see Christ so clearly as she had been accustomed to do. Miss H. then remarked, "I think, dear, you trust too much to your frames and feelings; if you could put more simple faith in the promises, and plead them, you would have clearer views of Christ.” G. then mentioned a dream which had caused her much uneasiness; but added, that God had, upon her awaking, brought his own words

to counteract it, which were these: "He shall dwell on high; his place of defence shall be the munitions of rocks;" and "Father, I will that they also whom thou hast given me be with me, where I am." This she said was reality, the other only a dream. In the afternoon, Miss H. gave her a little account of Mr. W.'s sermon; one remark of which greatly comforted her, "that the believer should never lose sight of his relationship to God, whatever his state might be." Her mind two or three days after this was in a very rejoicing state, so that she awoke the two sleeping in her room, by singing "Jesus, lover of my soul," and "Begone, unbelief." She told Miss H. in the morning what comfort she had derived from the promises, of which she had before almost lost sight. About this time she had two or three visits from Mr. S., from which she derived much benefit, particularly in the removal of the fear of death. She afterwards conversed very sweetly with a friend, on this point; and remarked what comfort there was in the thought, that "Jesus would give dying strength in a dying hour." Not long after, being seized with violent pain, she felt inclined to fret, in the prospect of a bad night, but strove against it, by endeavouring to keep her eye fixed on Christ; by which means she was supported, and enabled to leave all with Him. The night proved a better one than she expected.

The following Tuesday, being very weak and poorly, she remarked to a friend, "I think I shall not be long here, for I have heard Jesus calling me; and felt so happy, that I tried to sing, but found I had no voice. Ah! I shall soon be able to sing very loud; when this poor body is changed." The next day (February 7th), Mr. W. administered the Sacrament to her, which she greatly enjoyed; but for nearly a week after, she had to lament having lost sight of Christ. Her mind was however staid upon the promises, and Mr. W.'s remark before alluded to, for she often remarked, "I know he is near, though I cannot see him." Sunday 11th, she was much weaker! attempted to dress as usual, but found herself unequal to it. Referring to her death, she was asked if she really looked forward to it with pleasure, "Oh yes!" she replied, "It will indeed be a blessed day to me; for then I shall no more have to lament the hidings of his face: sin and suffering will be for ever ended." Monday, 12th, was the last day she left her bed room; in the morning she was able to listen to her chapters, Gen. 45th, and 2 Cor. 1; with the references to the 5th verse of the latter; also 2 Cor. i. 20: after which, she could bear no more. The pain in her back and chest were so acute that she could not forbear crying, and praying aloud; "O Father, grant me much patience-much strength-this is very hard to bear, but it is thy will." A schoolfellow who was with her, asked if she could do her any good: "No," she replied; "I only want patience, pray for me.' In the midst of her pains and tears, she exclaimed, “A Father's hand will never cause his child a needless tear; and I'm sure these are needless tears." She was relieved by half an hour's sleep, when her cough again disturbed her, with a re turn of pain; she then said, "Oh that this month would end my sufferings, but I fear it won't: I have much worse than this yet to bear." In the evening she was easier; and asked to have the two hymns repeated beginning, "This God is the God we adore;" and, "Oh what is Christ to me." Tuesday, 13th, a violent perspiration came on, which obliged her to change her bed: she was able to sit

up for a little while, twice in the course of the day, and requested one of her friends to take charge of her little trifles when she was gone; mentioning at the time, how she would wish some of them to be disposed off. In the evening, being seized with violent spasms, she remarked, "One day passes, and another day passes, when will the day come?" Wednesday, 14th, she was again seized with violent spasms, particularly in the throat, which was so sore, that for a considerable time she could not swallow. Her frequent ejaculation was, "Patience, much patience." Miss H. remarked, "Yes, dear, He will give you patience." "Oh yes," she said, "I know he will, he always has done, he has never forsaken me, and I am sure he will not now when I have so much to suffer." The housekeeper had been in the habit of going to her, to enquire what she would like for dinner; but I begged she might do so no more, as she would never be able to swallow again. She then requested Miss H. to pray with her; after which she was quieter; then suddenly exclaimed, "Oh what a mercy I have not now to prepare for death: I could not dress now, (alluding to her spiritual clothing;) Jesus has clothed me long ago with his robe of righteousness; what a miserable condition Ĭ should have been in if he had not: I could not have borne these pains so long." She then requested a chapter to be read to her, and chose the 4th and 5th of 2 Cor.; after which, she was again very ill: when easier, she asked a friend to lull her to sleep, by reading some favourite hymns. The nurse who was with her alone through the night, heard her pray most earnestly for herself, her mama, her schoolfellows, the housekeeper, and many others. She suffered much pain and exhaustion, so that the nurse thought her dying. In the morning, Thursday, 15, Miss D. went to relieve the nurse; and hearing G. had had so painful a night, asked her if Jesus had been with her; “Oh yes," she replied, "He has been very present: I have had a precious night; His throne is set up in my heart; His kingdom is there." After this, she became very ill with the pain in her chest, and sent for Miss H., whom she thus addressed: "Dear Miss H., I am in great pain, but Jesus is with me: will you pray that I may have more patience, to suffer his will?" This done, she said, "Now praise." Miss H. asked, "What for, dear?" 'Praise him for having answered prayer, and for having given me so much of his presence through a night of such suffering." After this, in reference to her schoolfellows, she exclaimed: "Oh the dear girls! they don't know what it is to be in such pain: tell them to prepare for it; tell them to seek Christ. Then remembering some who were in the habit of retiring alone, for the purpose of reading the Scriptures, she continued: "Tell them they must not be afraid of the others; Christ will be obeyed! they must not be ashamed of praying to him. He enabled me to leave them every evening, though I used to hear them say, 'Where's G. gone? oh! she's gone to pray.' I did not mind them, though when I returned, feeling rather ashamed, I used to hide my Bible. Tell S. she must be decided-she must not give up praying, nor let any one turn her from Christ. Dear A. is very kind and affectionate to me; but she must seek Christ: she must remember that prayer which she has often promised me to use: 'Create in me a clean heart.' And tell all, all the dear girls, they must go to Christ. I know there are many who would seek him, but they are afraid of the others: tell them Christ will be obeyed, and he is worth obey<

ing." Miss H. thinking she was dying, sent for her Teachers to see her; she had something to say to each one; and to one of the maids who had most faithfully waited upon her, she spoke so earnestly, beseeching her not to neglect her soul, that the tears almost choked her utterance. Then turning to Miss H., she said, "Dear Miss H., you think I'm going, but I am not so near as you seem to expectI feel stronger now than I have done for several days: strength has been given me to speak for Christ." After a little pause, she continued: "Jesus was with me all night! I asked him to come to me; and he was so sensible with me, that I thought he must have left the Father alone; then I recollected the Trinity: 'I and my Father are one;' and then I felt they were both with me. The Lord said I was his temple: 'My body is the temple of the Holy Ghost;' 'The temple of the living God.' Jesus was talking with me in the night; this was one thing he said: 'If any man love me, he will keep my commandments, and my Father will love him; and we will come unto him, and make our abode with him:' and, 'Behold I stand at the door and knock; if any man hear my voice and open the door, I will come into him and sup with him, and he with me.' I asked him to come in; I told him I had long opened the door of my heart to him." Then turning to Miss H., she continued: "Dear Miss H., I love to have you with me. I told Miss D., God would send you when I should most need you, and that all your bills and accounts would be done at the right time for me; and you see it is so. If I have a tomb stone, may this be the motto: 'He hath done all things well.' Mr. W. preached on it in the holidays; and then I chose it. I have no wish now to go home, I would rather die here: I have every comfort I could wish; and such kind friends around me. I hope my dear parents will never forget what I owe to this school." She then expressed much concern, as she had frequently done before, for the spiritual welfare of her brothers and sisters, and particularly named her eldest brother, and another who she expected would soon be confirmed. Her strength seemed now quite exhausted, and for the day she did nothing but doze. In the evening, feeling a little better, she asked to sit on Miss H.'s knee while her bed was made, and then remarked, that when she first came to school, she had prayed to die young; Miss H. enquired, why? she replied, "Because I had come to school to be fitted for a Governess, and I felt I should never be fitted to it, from the impediment in my speech, my nervous temperament, little abilities, and great timidity.' After she was in bed, she requested to see a schoolfellow, who was going to leave the next morning; she spoke most earnestly and affectionately to her, and said: "Dear M., you are going into the world, but Jesus will go with you. Let the Scriptures be the foundation of your instructions, and Jesus your principal theme." The next morning she sent her this text: "The Lord shall guide thee continually.” In the course of the morning, she remarked to Miss D., "I have an inward feeling that I shall go soon, I hear such whisperings all about me; I think I shall have an easy passage; and perhaps go very softly, before you are aware of it." And this was the case at last; but the dear child little knew what agonies she would be called to endure first. She then requested Miss D. to read a hymn, which had been much in her thoughts during her illness, adding, "It will shew you what has been my state of mind." The hymn is as follows: