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confine him. During the first week of his confinement, he was for constraining every one that came near him, to kneel down and pray; and frequently cried out, You will be lost, you will be damned, unless you know your sins are forgiven.' Upon this Mr. - roundly averred, That the Methodists had turned his head. After seven or eight days he grew much worse, though still with intervals of reason. And in about a fortnight, by a judgment mixed with mercy, God took him to himself."

Tuesday 14, The waters were greatly out in the road, so that the York coach was overturned just before us: the bridge it should have gone over being under water : yet no passenger was hurt, only dropping wet, being all thrown into the river. We were to pass the same river a few miles off, and which way to do it, we knew not. But just as we came to the place, we overtook two gentlemen, who had hired a guide. So we followed them as close as we could, and crossed it without difficulty.

I preached about five at Leeds, in the walls of the new house. Wednesday 15, we had a little conference with about thirty Preachers. I particularly enquired concerning their grace, and gifts, and fruit; and found reason to doubt of one only.

Thursday 16, I rode to Wakefield. But we had no place except the street, which could contain the congregation : and the noise and tumult there were so great, that I knew not whether I could preach at all. But I spoke a few words, and the waves were still. Many appeared deeply attentive. I believe God has taken hold of some of their hearts, and that they will not easily break loose from him.

Friday 17, I preached in the new house at Birstal, already too small for even a week-day's congregation. After a few days more spent among the neighbouring Societies, I returned by easy journies to London.

Friday, June 1, I wrote as follows to the Rector and Fellows of our college :-Ego, Johannes Wesley, Collegii Lincolniensis in academia Oxoniensi Socius, quicquid mihi juris est in prædicta societate, ejusdem Rectori & Sociis

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sponte ac libere resigno : illis universis & singulis perpetuam pacem ac omnimodam in Christo felicitatem exoptans. A few days after I went down to Bristol, where I procured

I a particular account of one that went to rest some months before. Part of it was as follows :-“ Elizabeth Walcam was born in March 1733. From her infancy she was mild and affable. When she was about six years old, she was much in private prayer, and often called her brother and sister to join with her. If she were in any trifling and laughing company, she seldom went farther than a little smile. In the whole course of her life she was remarkably dutiful to her parents, and loving to all ; mostly in an even frame of spirit; slow to anger, and soon pacified; tender-hearted to all that were distressed, and a lover of all that was good. From the time she joined the Society, she was a true lover of her ministers and her brethren; not suffering any to speak evil of them, particularly of her ministers : and if her innocent answers did not stop them, she left their company.

“ In the beginning of December last she was indisposed ; and on Saturday 8, took her room. In the afternoon she broke out, · When shall I see my Jesus? I want to know that he has taken away my sins.' After a while she cried,

He does love me. I know Jesus loves me. My Father! He is my Father! and my God!' Yet on the Wednesday following she was in deep distress. I found her, (says one who then visited her ) crying out, О that I were washed in the blood of the Lamb! Pray for me, that I may know my sins are forgiven.' I prayed with her several times, and stayed all night. She did not sleep at all; her pain of body, as well as mind, being exceedingly great. She was almost continually in prayer, crying for mercy, till I went away, about eight in the morning.

“ About nine in the evening I came again. She was still in violent pain; but did not seem to regard this, in comparison of her soul. Her continual cry was, I do not know Christ: I want an interest in Christ. O that I might know Him! O that he would forgive my sins ! that he would wash me whiter than snow. She had never any ease but


while we were at prayer, with which she was never satis fied; but held me, and would not let me rise from my knees, sometimes for an hour together. I was praying with her about twelve o'clock, when she called out, `Help me to praise the Lord. I feel my sins are forgiven. I am washed, and made whiter than snow. She spent the remainder of the night in praise and prayer. About eight in the morning I went home.

“On Sunday evening I found her much weaker in body; but her soul was full of life and vigour. When I came in, she said, “I am exceedingly glad you are come. Now let us rejoice together. We shall meet together in heaven : I am washed in the blood of the Lamb: I know God is my Father : I know my name is written in heaven : there we shall all rejoice together.' She was never satisfied with giving thanks ; not suffering me to rise from my knees, but holding me by my hands when I went to rise.

“ About eight Mrs. W. came in, and told us Mr. C. W, was come to town. She then broke out into prayer for him, for Mr. J. W., and for the Society. Afterward she prayed for the Quakers, that God would deliver them from all darkness of mind, covetousness, pride, and the love of the world. She continued praying till near twelve o'clock, speaking with a clear, strong voice; although, whenever she ceased speaking, she seemed just dying away. About twelve she cried out · Lord, forgive me. What shall I do to be saved ?' I was astonished to hear her voice so changed ; and asked, "My dear, what is it distresses you?' She answered, 'I feel anger toward Peggy.' (That was the maid's name.) 'Lord, forgive me! Lord, lay not this sin to my charge!! We went to prayer together; and, after a time, she said, 'Help me to bless and thank the Lord. I find sweet refreshments from him. He is reconciled again.' And from that hour she found no more darkness.

“ She then began praying for her parents, her sisters, and brother; adding, “Do pray, that God would restrain him from the evils of this world. I have been restrained from a child. I never could play, as other children did.' To





wards morning she dosed a little; but all the intervals she spent in praise and thanksgiving, still speaking with as clear and strong a voice, as if she had been in health.

« One day, as she was praising God, one desired her brother to take pattern by her. She immediately answered, Not by me; take pattern by Jesus, take pattern by Jesus.' About twelve at night, as I came into the room, she said, My heart is blessed of the Lord, and in the strength of the living God I speak: come, let us go to prayer ; let us praise the living God once more in this world ; the Lord

Here her breath failed. But soon after, she sung with us, “Come, let us join our cheerful songs;' adding, 'I am more afraid to live than to die, but whether I live or die, I will praise the Lord.'

“ On Sunday morning she said, “Jesus loves me; He has been always with me; He is a merciful God; He is indeed. I shall go to glory, to glory. Come, O Lord Jesus, and make my passage easy to eternal glory. I long to be with Jesus. I could grasp him! (stretching out her arms ) O give me an easy passage-We shall soon meet again, to sing praises unto the Lord for ever.' At another time she said, “Let others do what they will, we will praise the Lord. I am happy, I am easy; if he raises me or not, I shall praise the Lord.' She said to her father, " I asked to drink of the bitter cup; but I knew not what I asked. But yet, if it is a hundred times more, I desire to drink it all.'

As she grew weaker, she was seized with strong convulsions, which followed close one upon another. But the moment the fit ceased, she always began to speak, praying and praising God; nor was her understanding or even her memory, either disordered or weakened thereby : nay, her understanding remained even during the fit, so that she heard and knew all that was spoken near her, and when she recovered her speech, repeated as there was occasion, and remarked upon

it. “ When Mr. C. W. and two others came to pray with her, she was exceedingly low. After they were gone, she


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said, “My spirit joins with them : they are the people of God; I know they are : how sweet they look! Don't they look different from other people ? Come, mother, let us praise God; I am always better after prayer. O for a thousand tongues to sing my dear Redeemer's praise ! 0 how great is my rejoicing! I shall be whiter than the driven snow.'

“Soon after she said, I am refreshed; indeed I am. We shall see him on his great, white throne. There we shall see him face to face. My dear Jesus ! Praise Jesus : Why don't you praise Jesus ? Praise my God: He is making intercession for me; Heis: the Lord loves me; I know he does.' To her mother she said, “What a blessed thing is it, that you have brought up a child for the Lord ?' She continued praying and praising God till the 25th, when her breath was so short, that she could say nothing but Jesus. This she uttered continually as she could, till about six in the evening she resigned her spirit, without any sigh or groan, or alteration in her countenance, which had the same sweetness as when she was living. She lived on earth sixteen years, nine months, and eighteen days."

Friday 22, I drew up a short account of the case of Kingswood School.

1, The School began on Midsummer-day, 1748. The Rules were printed, and notwithstanding the strictness of them, in two or three months we had twenty-eight Scholars: so that the family, including M. D., the house-keeper, R. T., our man, and four maid-servants, consisted of forty persons.

2, From the very beginning I met with all sorts of discouragements. Cavillers and prophets of evil were on every

side. A hundred objections were made both to the whole design, and every particular branch of it. Especi. ally by those from whom I had reason to expect better things : notwithstanding which, through God's help, I went on ; wrote an English, a Latin, a Greek, a Hebrew, and a French Grammar, and printed Prælectiones Pueriles, with many other books for the use of the School; and God gave



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