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repeated—namely, that John is risen again from the dead, end that mighty works do shiw forth them" Jthxs in him. It is true, the terrors of God, and the flames of wrath, cannot woo nor win the heart, in-the present state that man is in through the fall. The carnal mind is enmity against God, and the Jaw worketh wrath. The more the terrors of the law operate on the sinner's heart, the more the enmity and rebellion of the sinner is stirred up against it, till the very gulf itself appears to be open between God and the ibul-; and, until Christ appears, there can be no way of reconciliation open, nor any hope of nearness and access, much less of communion and sellowship, and an eternal enjoyment of his presence in heaven. The carnal mind cannot be subject to the law of God, but will rebel and fight against it, as long as the law discharges one curse at the sinner, even if this war should continue to all eternity; for there is no word of reconciliation, nor mediator, in the dismal regions of hopeless prisoners. Most seeking sinners are much out in their expectations of the first glorious appearance of Christ to them; they expect submission, meekness, contrition, godly sorrow, patience, repentance, humility, &c. &c. to operate previous to his coming as so many preparatory operations either to engage him, allure him, or else to pave the way for him; but for my part I had none of these harbingers or forerunners. There was nothing in me but guilt, shame, sear, rebellion, des
O 2 pe ration, peration, and downright madness, and a determination to seek his face and sue for mercy no more. At this time he came; and he brought all that was good along with him. His reward was with him, and his work before him; and the first view that ever my faith had of him, was that of the only begotten of the Father, full of grace and truth; and out of his fulness I received, and that grace for grace; for the law came to me (with the accufations) of Mofes, but grace and truth came to my foul by Jesus Christ, who silenced Mofes as my Advocate, and answered all his demands as my Surety, and sent him off from the mount of transsiguration, while Jesus and his poor disciple were left alone, admiring and wondering at each other. He seemed pleased that he had caught the lost sheep, and I wept for joy that I had found the chief Shepherd. I believe that the ministering angels attended on me before Jesus came, and that it was they who articulated the word that God spoke to me; but I believe that there were none standing near when the first glorious visit was paid, and the marriage knot tied. It was something like the marriage of our first parents; God the Father draws us to the second Adam, as Eve was brought to the first, or else we should never come; the Spirit reveals the wedding garment to faith, and faith puts it on, and Christ immediately embraces the foul in his own robe, and becomes one spirit with it, and the sole and whole possessor of 7 . it. it. Thy present senfations under the operation of the Spirit of God will humble thee, strip thee, and empty thee, more than all the terrors that have gone before; nothing can stand before the rushing mighty wind that fills the house, and that proclaims the great Deliverer, and the year of jubilee at hand. Thy expectations of more wrath spring from a consciousness of thy just deserts; but God exacts of us far less than our iniquities deserve—he hath never dealt with us according to our sins, nor rewarded according to our iniquities. He stays the rough wind in the day of the east wind, lest, like Jonah, we faint, and choofe death rather than lise.
MY DEARLY BELOVED FATHER IN CHRIST,
Grace, mercy, and peace^attend you, srm God the Father, and Christ Jesus our Lord.
I Thank God, whom I lamely serve, with pure conscience (as touching one part), that without ceasing (when I am in my right mind) \ have remembrance of you in my prayers, greatly desiring
to see you at B and G , especially if I could
conceive that you would meet me, not as a pastor,
but as the poor crawling tailor of B- . What I
fay is not a jest, but a real, genuine, experimental truth, and so you will sind it • nevertheless, I think we should all jump for joy if the Lord would permit you to come amongst us, and I hope, with the rest of us, that he will; for, be assured, that our hearts and houses, such as they are, will all be open to you.
I received your kind letters, and am ashamed of myself for giving you so much trouble -, may God l reward Ttward you, and I trust he will. There is some -consolation to be drawn, when I sind that in some measure I see eye to eye with you; I can sind the effect of your correspondence with tne is gradually this: Satan gets expofed, truth gets cleared up, and myself in some measure established; so that I hope, by this, by trials, and by truth, \ shall at length be more established in the faith. I have been in those chambers of imagery you speak os, and am not altogether quit of them to this day; I am glad you mentioned them. I used to be glad when night came, when all bustle, noise, and distraction of the world ceased, that I might be free to recollect, to pray, and, if I could, to meditate; but when I have been the most intent in prayer, these intruding visitants would come, so that I must attend upon .them: I could not conceive the occasion of them, or hdw they came; I used to think it was my own vain imaginations, or that it was something like when I was a child, I used to press my eyes with my .hand, which produced to my understanding, or to the eye of my mind, various coloured phantoms, such as blue, red, &c. but these sigures used to come, for the most part, when I was the most clofely engaged in prayer, and it has beCn so effected sometimes, that the eye of my mind has been clofely .fixed upon these things before J have been aware, though but just before I have been groaning out my heart before God in servency of soul; but when I thave perceived it, I have been put in confusion and