in my own mind that it came from the Lord, and cried out, "Lord, where are they? I can find none "that know any thing of my experience." These words were fixed on my mind, and I used often to fay, "Lord, where are they?" However, foon after I faw a man and his wife, whom I had been acquainted with, coming from your chapel in Titchfield-street; I would have fhunned them, but they called me; I thought they fhould get nothing out of me. They asked me how I got on? I anfwered, Middling! But I believe they faw by my countenance where I was, and asked me why I did not go to hear Mr. Huntington? I replied, I did not know who to hear, nor where to go. They told me where you preached; I answered them lightly, but it was greatly impreffed on my mind all the week; and when Sunday morning came I set off and found the chapel. I remember getting into one of the free feats, up in one corner, like a thief, that nobody might know me. I do not recollect the text you then preached from; but I heard attentively, which I had not done for fome time before. I got away as foon as you had done, that I might not be seen by any one that knew me; for I had heard very evil things faid of you, which foon found they could not prove. As I went home meditating on the discourse, I faid, "This man seems "to know fomething of what I feel; I will go and "hear him again." When I got home, I faid thus to my wife:-I believe the Lord has directed me

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to a man that knows fomething about my distress, for he feemed to fpeak a little about it. She asked, Where is it, and who is he? I faid his name is and it is as far as Oxford Market, and I fhould go again in the evening; fhe was in a pet about it, and said, You fhall not drag me fo far to hear I do not know who. However I was determined to go; and come I did, bringing her with me; and, bleffed be the Lord, he never let us gq back; he was pleased to give me a hearing ear, so that I perceived I was not haraffed with those temptations under the word preached as I had been. I thought for fome weeks that you preached to none but me, defcribing my ftate fo, that at laft it all came out; the Lord bleffed it to my foul, I was fet at liberty again, peace was proclaimed, you was made manifest in my confcience, and I rejoiced again in the light of God's countenance. I blessed the Lord, that ever he brought me under your miniftry, I thanked him night and day; I could then fee you was the paftor the Lord had promised to give me.

Now began perfecution: but, blefs the Lord, I have often admired his tender goodness in this thing. He would not fuffer them to speak to me till he was pleased to speak peace to my foul again and those of Mr. W -'s chapel not only perfecuted me openly, but imagined lies in their heart; for they told me I left his chapel on purpose to live in fin. Mr. W- himfelf told me I was got into the

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Huntingtonian's eafy chair, but I fhould find a difference on a death-bed. I fent them word, I would meet the church at any time, to prove all they faid was false; but they never fent for me, fo gave me up, watching for my fall: but, bleffed be the Lord, he has kept me by his mighty power to this day, and has given me to fee fome of those that were counted pillars among them turn their back on Jefus; but I know it is by his grace I am kept to the present moment, as one of the vileft of poor finners faved. This experience brought me to know God's faithfulness to his chofen, for I proved him fo in that furnace.

Soon after this my love waxed cold, and I began to crave after this world's goods; I thought, if I could get a little beforehand by honeft industry, it was no more than right. I fet to with a willing mind, as I thought, and not without prayer to God neither. I went in fearch for fomething: a chandler's shop offered, and money to be lent me to fet up. My mind was fet upon it. I went to the Lord, and prayed, if it was not his will, by no means to let me have it; and went to him often too: but I muft confefs, though I prayed against it if it was not his will, yet my heart was for it; and the Lord, who is the fearcher of all hearts, knew that I defired to have it, and he let me have it to my forrow; for I ftrove hard, and meant well, but the Lord's hand went out against me in all that I undertook; and I wondered at it, for I did not, as yet,

fee the fnare; but experience brings us to a knowledge of these things; and I thank my dear Redeemer that ever he brought me in a way of experience, in anywife to know the cunning of Satan, and the proneness of my own heart to ftray from the beft of friends. I went on here, hoping things would be better; but I had loft my God, there was no communion, things got worse and worse; I was in debt and nothing to pay with, in that fense my prayers were shut out, no answer to my petitions, fill all things going against us. Sometimes my wife and I would quarrel whofe fault it was for coming there, for we were both in the mefs; then would we fret one against the other: we would pray, but to no purpose. And here the Lord kept us till he made us as fenfibly fick of it as ever poor creatures were in this world. Then he was pleafed to humble us in the duft, and fhewed us we had backslidden from him through covetousness and the enfnarement of the riches of this world, for my heart was after it; but his tender love to us would not let us go. Though he kept me clofe at his dear footftool a good while, confeffing and praying for deliverance before it came, and would say to my poor foul, Haft thou not procured these things to thyself? Yes, Lord, I would cry, I have, and beg thy pardoning mercy only to forgive thy poor worms, and deliver us out of this place; being ready to fay, I never would be entangled in this way again: but the Lord knows how weak we are, and I fee he

will let us know it too; for, I believe, in less than a twelvemonth I was entangled in the fame way again. But, after this deliverance, I went comfortably on for fome time; the Lord bleffed me under the word often, and many precious promifes he was pleased to give me.

At this time there were three or four friends, as they were pleased to stile themselves, came from the Mulberry Gardens chapel to fpend the afternoon with me, to inquire into my profeffion, and what doctrines I held fince I heard Mr. Huntington. They seemed greatly to pity me, and asked a great many questions, which the Lord enabled me to answer in a measure. I infifted on the Spirit's work, they upon free will. I told them of God's everlasting love to his chofen, and being kept by his mighty power. They faid I must take the law, that is, the ten commandments, as my rule to walk by, though I was called by grace, or elfe I was an Antinomian (the meaning of the word Antinomian I was at this time ignorant of). Upon asking how I must go on in this way? They answered, I must walk in the footsteps of the Lord Jefus Chrift as near as I could. I told them, a man was a mere machine, for no longer than he is wrought upon by the Holy Ghoft can he do aught that is wellpleafing to God, for it is God must work in him to will and to do. This affronted my guests, and they perfecuted me fadly; and one of their confederates wherreted me continually, till I hated her;

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