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in my own mind that it came from the Lord, and cried out, "Lord, where are they? I can find none "thac know any thing of my experience." These words were fixed on my mind, and I used often to soy, "Lord, where are they?" However, soon after I faw a man and his wise, whom I had been acquainted with, coming from your chapel in Titchfield-street; I would have shunned them, but they called me; I thought they should get nothing out of me. They asked me how I got on? I answered, Middling! But 1 believe they faw by my countenance where I was, and asked me why I did not go to hear Mr. Huntington? 1 replied, I did not know who to hear, nor where to go. They told me where you preached; I answered them lightly, but it was greatly impressed on my mind all the week; and when Sunday morning came I set off and found the chapel. I remember getting into one of the free seats, up in one corner, like a thief, that nobody might know me. 1 do not recollect: the text you then preached from; but I heard attentively, which I had not done for some time before. I got away as soon as you had done, that I might not be seen by any one thac knew me; for I had heard very evil things faid of you, which ! soon found they could not prove. As I went home meditating on the discourse, I faid, " This man seems "to know something of what 1 seel; I will go and ." hear him again." When I got home, I faid thus {o my wise:—I believe the Lord has directed me fa a man that knows something about my distress, for he seemed to speak a little about it. She asked, Where is it, and who is he? I faid his name is Huntington> and it is as far as Qxford Market, and I should go again in the evening; she was in a pet about it, and faid, You shall not drag me so far to hear 1 dp not know who. However 1 was determined to go; and come I did, bringing her with me; and, blessed be the Lord, he never let us gq back; he was pleased to give me a hearing ear, sq that I perceived I was not harassed with thofe temptations under the word preached as I had been. I thought for some weeks that you preached to none but me, describing my state so, that at last it all came out; the Lord blessed it to my soul, I was set at liberty again, peace was proclaimed, you was made manisest in my conscience, and I rejoiced again in the light of God's countenance. I blessed the Lord, that ever he brought me under your ministry, I thanked him night and day; I could then, see you was the pastor the Lord had promised tq give me.

Now began persecution: but, bless the Lord, I have often, admired his tender goodness in this thing. He would not suffer them to speak to me till he was pleased to speak peace to my soul again: and thofe

pfMr. W 's chapel not only persecuted me

ppenly, but imagined lies in their heart; for they told me I left his chapel on purpofe to live in sin.

Mr. W himself told me I was got into the

Huntingtonian's Huntingtonian's easy chair, but I should find a difference on a death-bed. I sent them word, I would meet the church at any time, to prove all they faid was false; but they never sent for me, so gave me up, watching for my fall: but, blessed be the Lord, he has kept me by his mighty power to this day, and has given me to see some of thofe that were counted pillars among them turn their back on Jesus; but I know it is by his grace I am kept to the present moment, as one of the vilest of poor sinners faved. This experience brought me to know God's faithfulness to his chofen, for I proved him so in that furnace.

Soon aster this my love waxed cold, and I began to crave aster this world's goods; I thought, if I could get a little beforehand by honest industry, it was no more than right. I set to with a willing mind, as I thought, and not without prayer to God iieither. I went in search for something: a chandler's shop offered, and money to be lent me to set up. My mind was set upon it. I went to the Lord, and prayed, if it was not his will, by no means to let me have it; and went to him often too: but I rnust consess, though I prayed against it if it was not his will, yet my heart was for it; and the Lord, who is tjie searcher of all hearts, knew that I defired to have it, and he let me have it to my sorrow; for I strove hard, and meant well, but the Lord's hand went out against me in all that I undertook; and J wondered at it, for I did not, as yet,

R 4 see. see the snare; but experience brings us to a knowledge of these things; and I thank my dear Redeemer that ever he brought me in a way of experience, in anywise to know the cunning of Satan, and the pronenefs of my own heart to stray from the best of friends. I went on here, hoping thing? would be better; but I had lost my God, there was no communion, things got worse and worse; I was in debt and nothing to pay with, in that sense my prayers were shut out, no answer to my petitions, still all things going against us. Sometimes my wise and I would quarrel whose fault it was for coming there, for we were both in the mess; then would we fret one against the other: we would pray, but to no purpose. And here the Lord kept us till he made us as sensibly sick of it as ever poor creatures, were in this world. Then he was pleased to humble us in the dust, and shewed us we had backslidden from him through covetousness and the ensnarement of the riches of this world, for my heart was aster it; but his tender love to us would not let us go. Though he kept me close at his dear footstool a good while, consessing and praying for deliverance before it came, and would fay to my poor foul, Haft thou, not procured these things to thyself? Yes, Lord, I would cry, I have, and beg thy pardoning mercy only to forgive thy poor worms, and deliver us out of this place; being ready to fay, I never would be entangled in this way again: but the Lord knows how weak we are, and I see he will let us know it too; for, I believe, in less than a twelvemonth I was entangled in the fame way again. But, aster this deliverance, I went comfortably on for some time; the Lord blessed me under the word often, and many precious promises he was pleased tp give me.

At this time there were three or four friends, as they were pleased to stile themselves, came from the Mulberry Gardens chapel to spend the asternoon with me, to inquire into my prosession, and what doctrines I held since I heard Mr. Huntington. They seemed greatly to pity me, and asked a great many questions, which the Lord enabled me to answer in a measure. I insisted on the Spirit's work, they upon free will. I told them of God's everlasting love to his chofen, and being kept by his mighty power. They faid I must take the law, that is, the ten commandments, as my rule to walk by, though I was called by grace, or else I was an Antinomian (the meaning of the word Antinomian I was at this time ignorant of). Upon asking how I must go on in this way? They answered, I must walk, in the footsteps of the Lord Jesus Christ as near as I could. I told them, a man was a mere machine, for no longer than he is wrought upon by the Holy Ghost can he do aught that is wellpleasing to God, for it is God must work in him to will and to do. This affronted my guests, and they persecuted me fadly; and one of their consederates wherreted me continually, till I hated her*


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